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Jake's sister
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Date: June 09, 2011 11:24AM
Jake and storm have both said this board is a safe zone and will be a place for me to learn how to live outside the the church. I can't go back but my family's entire life is tied tightly to the mormon culture. I'm not like Jake. He's educated, self confident and comfortable in his skin. I'm none of those. Everything I am is or have been comes from the church and the activities. So I really don't who I am or where to find myself. I never thought about it as it was done for me . My role was established when I was born. My shrink is so good but he can only do so much. And to tell the truth I'm scared. I suppose that's normal.
And then there's storm. She's unlike the women I know. They never admit any problems, everything is always perfect. That can't be and the big reason I can't do this any more. I'm not perfect and chasing it did me in. storm is confident but told me wasn't always that way. She seems to do the right thing and makes it look easy. Storm should never speak to me again because of what ai did and said. But she does. I don't know, it's all do confusing.
Jake's sister