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nuuvox
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Date: July 06, 2018 09:01PM
Hey everyone, just wanted to update you on my situation. It's been 6 weeks since I told my wife I didn't believe in God anymore. It has been pretty rough. The first day she was in shock. Second and third days, she was mad and sad. Then we went about a week where things were great. Two weeks pass and she has a breakdown and says she is going to divorce me and I betrayed her etc.
Sunday morning we figure out custody for our son, figure out money, housing, cars, holidays, etc. This is all very civil because we're still in love of course. I'm sobbing all morning, she's angry and crying and angry again. Then she tells me that she can't live without me and she wants to stay together.
That was probably the worst of it so far. Most days have been great since then. I think she's learning to deal with it but every now and then she brings up that it seems like I'm not putting forth any effort to get my testimony back. I don't know exactly how to tell her that I don't think I'll change my mind about my beliefs. In my view, I finally figured out the truth but I know that's not what she wants to hear so I haven't told her that. I just skirt around it, giving her clues.
I have been nothing but supportive and nice and accommodating through all of this because I understand what she's going through. I don't want to press anything or tell her to stop trying to change me, it's not going to happen. I'm hoping she will realize that 98% of our lives together is unchanged. (We were never super religious to begin with). Like I said 6 weeks ago, I am continuing to go to church. I enjoy talking with people and I want to support my wife in her beliefs. I don't pray or pay tithing or anything though, I'm not going to fake anything. But I don't have to disclose my beliefs to anyone either. On that same note, I'm not interested in coffee, alcohol, etc either. Still wearing my garments though because I don't want to trigger anything in my wife.
So anyway, that's the way things are right now. I'm going to tell my family in the next couple weeks. That should be just fine though. Most of them are inactive and one is an atheist already.
I'm going to avoid the word atheist because of the baggage and call myself a humanist whenever someone is pressing for a label from me. My lack of religion doesn't define me, I just want to live in peace.
So it's been pretty tough. Not sure what to do so I'm just coasting and trying to show my wife that it's still me and I don't have a devil inside of me. Hoping the dust can settle on the explosion a bit.
To whoever read all this, thanks. It's nice to communicate my feelings about this.
Edit: I also want to thank everyone who posted on my last post 6 weeks ago. I have read all of your responses carefully.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 07/06/2018 09:23PM by nuuvox.