Date: September 10, 2019 09:46AM
I have experienced a lot. Most of my young adulthood was full of threats. I was taught that it was the Lord's way: to suffer and be continually chastised. There were lots of steel making stories about being raked over the fiery coals. It was for your own good.
I thought that serving a mission was going to be a breathe of fresh air. It wasn't. I had no idea that it was going to be run like my miserable youth. Lot's of intimidation and full of threats. It was so bad that our running joke/gag was "I'm not worthy." Pretty sad for a mission that was often leading stateside baptisms (but we were never told that).
This story was pretty bad from the MTC. I was expected to finish a mission. It was important for my Mom in seeking approval of her church peers (bragging).https://www.exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,2048959,2048959#msg-2048959
There were 3 times that I could have gone home. The MTC incident, the death of my grandma and a serious violation of missionary rules (my fault).