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Lowpriest
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Date: August 02, 2020 07:13PM
I often blame myself for falling into the trap set for me by the mormon church. Perhaps I was flawed. Maybe as a 16 year old boy I had already committed some terrible act that meant that I was ready for a lifetime of control. Maybe I deserved it.
I consider my upbringing. There was lots of craziness on both branches of the family tree. I was a nerdy kid. I was not popular nor was I unpopular. I was simply unknown. But I was told that I was the best.
I suffered from the same delusions of grandeur that so many Americans have. I was meant to do something big. I could grow up to be president. As Bill Maher said, I was a millionaire in waiting. Like so many white middle class people, I was bright and above average. America is a country where everyone is "above average". (I only recently understood the paradox of this statement.) I was a leader who had not found his followers.
Then the mormon church came into my life. I was told that I was part of a chosen generation. I was special. I was a golden contact. The elders were overjoyed that they were the lucky ones who found me.
The elders explained that the mormons were the chosen people. They held the Royal priesthood. They were people of God. I was a son of God.
After baptism my delusions received nourishment. You see, in the mormon church everyone is a leader. Everyone is in a presidency. Everyone has a personal calling from God. Everyone is special. The mormon church plays upon the American vision that we are all special.
I learned that I could become a god. I could have limitless increase. I could rule my own planet. Seriously. I ate this up for the first few years of membership.
In fact, I was a lonely, friendless loser. I was a perfect target.
For the first few years I enjoyed the fellowship of good people. I had friends. I belonged to a community. It had nothing to do with actual facts or the truth, although I kept telling myself that it did.
The mormon church preys upon those who, for whatever reason, are susceptible to its charms. It lies and flatters. It covers and conceals. It manipulates and takes advantage.
The mormon church leverages your weakness and takes ownership of you.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 08/02/2020 07:16PM by Lowpriest.