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Cold-Dodger
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Date: January 15, 2021 09:33AM
I’m far more cynical about what the church intended. Remember the church was caught with their pants down — the news and the document containing the policy proposal leaked before most people had any idea. It was a bishop who leaked it to Mormon Stories. The apologetics that came afterwards was purely reactionary. To the extent that it came from the top down, it was knee jerk damage control. To the extent that it happened at the grassroots as Mormons scrambled to justify themselves and their cult, it was self-contradictory self-justifying nonsense that wasn’t fully formed yet. I think the Brethren were only ashamed at first because they didn’t know how their conservative core and the largest part of their tithing base would react. But after the first day of two when those voices had started to prevail among faithful Mormons, instead of the voices of liberals and apostates, that was when they started to say it was inspired and it was here to stay. The Q15 realized, I think, that this doctrine that there’s nothing wrong with having a same sex couple at the core of a family unit had not spread as far as they had feared, and they only had to cook something up that the fence-sitter Mormons (I mean any Mormon who felt that this was wrong but who can never articulate such a feeling in a way that rebukes the Brethren in any way) could believe. So they said it was because we love them. We don’t want to poison their relationships with their families, they said, and we generally don’t wish evil upon them so pardon us while we continue to insist that every single toxic thing that’s been said on the subject before still stands. Anyone who knows a gay tbm who was struggling to make it work with this backwards culture knows that what the Brethren did is signal to worst of the saints, the very worst, the ones who make up the core of Mormon Trumpism later, that liberal nonsense and delight in sin was not going to penetrate any further into God’s kingdom than it already had. That was the point: stop the incursion, carve out the already-infected, shore up defenses to prevent its return.
I have very strong opinions about this, because I watched the cultiness of Mormonism on full display in Rexburg. Everyone was equally shocked on day one. On day 2, the attempts to self-justify from the more conservative half of the church started crashing against us like waves on the rocky shoreline, but it was not yet aided by the brethren’s armies of public relations goons, so it was all over the place and contradictory. The more liberal half was pleading with them not to do this, not to defend this position, because on day 3 the word came down from on high that this was a blessed policy from the Lord and the acolytes found a shoe that fit: it’s because we love them. Once that footing was found, just like every time that footing is found, the mainstream current of Mormon consciousness edited its collective memories of the past so that those first two days of doubt and self-searching never happened or at least were far more nobler a process than they actually were — with fasting, praying, and scripture searching eventually leading to a good feeling that the policy was of God. On day 4, no liberal in all of BYUI dared say anything further on the subject lest they come out in rebellion against the priesthood, but we mourned privately. What I witnessed as a student at BYUI was the Mormon quality for blind obedience embodied in the story of Labon’s beheading, that ability to quiet one’s inner light in favor of the nonsensical impulses put there by one’s leaders and thereby commit or at least consent to something egregious. It was the second time I’d watched it happen with my eyes wide open, actually, the first being the picture of the rock in the hat. But this one hurt people, and I knew I had to leave after that. There’s no reasoning with the main body of this lot. They resent you for trying.