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catnip
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Date: November 20, 2021 02:58AM
You SO nailed it with your description of a newbie Mormon's post-baptism experience. Nobody ever pointed it out here (at least, that I remember) and I have wondered if it was just my (mis)perception.
Your comment: ". . .1. They don't pay much attention to you after baptism (before then they're all over you to get you in the tank) 2. Many seem oblivious to how a new convert feels, or they just don't care. And 3. their attitude is that it's your fault, whatever "it" is. . ."
The ward I was baptized into was in the Deep South (US) and felt more like an extended family than a church congregation. That ward was marvelous! (It was also before correlation, which may or may not matter.)
Then I got a job transfer Way Out West, to a State where I didn't know a soul. Like a good little Mormon, I made some calls, found out what ward I belonged to, and how to find it from where I lived. It was, for the record, MUCH closer to the Zion Curtain. The people in the new ward were superficially polite, but I didn't feel especially welcome.
When they realized that I could deliver pretty good talks, they seemed to appreciate me more. I could make them laugh, cry, or at least, pay attention. And yeah, I got the point across, too.
They asked me to teach now and again, with both the Young Women (who were really fun most of the time) and in Relief Society. After one especially deep RS lesson, I got called to visit the RS Prez at her home.
She asked me what had been the point of my most recent lesson. I told her, "I don't want them to just sit there and stare at me. I want them to THINK. . ."
She cut me off there and said, "They aren't there to think. They are there to learn correct doctrine."
I must have realized at that moment that the EXIT sign had just been lit, but it took me a few more weeks to realize it. The people who had been superficially nice to me when I transferred in began ignoring me altogether.
I got the feeling that everybody else had begun starching their garments, and the starch was making them all grouchy. I wondered if my former ward was starched now, too.
I started noticing more and more items in talks, in lessons, in articles in the Ensign, etc. seemed meaner-spirited and less inspiring.
It dawned on me that I didn't want to be there any more. I used Kathy Worthington's guidelines to write my resignation letter.
And nobody seemed to care.
Thank you for pointing out that everybody and their cat are your best buddies ever, until you take the plunge. Then you fall off the radar. You can see that it triggered some memories for me.