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Date: August 25, 2011 04:09AM
So...my brother got his letter in the mail today after sending off his email resignation. He was very happy! I have a best friend that was able to pull herself together after I announced my departure from the church and sent off my own resignation to keep being friends. While some things have not changed, a lot has. A connection is gone, and I feel like she is a bit wary of me. That's to be expected, but her sudden need to post up her testimonies and thoughts about the Savior have increased, and I can see right through to the secret messages.
Is it natural to still have a bit of doubt? Was the Mormon influence so strong on me that I am actually worried I may be wrong? But as a church member, things didn't feel right either. I was taught that in order to be a good Mormon, I had to fear God. That never settled well with me. A lot of things didn't. I guess I'm just in an awkward stage of my recovery? I hope to feel 'stable' soon. A lot of people hhave shunned me now that I am exmormon, so I'm glad to still have my best buddy...people just don't like change. They don't like to see this once meek, Shy girl suddenly grow a backbone and stand up for herself.
What about you? What kind of friends stayed, and who decided it wasn't worth wasting time on you anymore?