Posted by:
forestpal
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Date: September 10, 2011 05:28PM
When I was TBM, I tried for almost 20 years to get a temple divorce from a horrible wife-beater. Looking into the stupid reasons why I couldn't get a temple divorce, when my monster of an ex was able to get married in the temple three times, led me to discover the truth.
One day it dawned on me, that the Mormon priesthood had no real authority from God! Mormon men can not tell God what to do. I, as an autonomous human being, had more "authority" over my self and my life. I carefully wrote a temple divorce ceremony, using the same wording as in my marriage ceremony, but tweaking things a bit. I also used something the temple president had said when he married us: "Should one spouse abuse another spouse, this marriage is null and void, in the sight of God." This sentence had been buried in all that threatening that if we didn't obey the cult, we would lose our temple blessings.
I had three cousins and two friends help me--all were ex-Mormons. We wore real temple clothes, and I made an altar out of my coffee table. My cousin acted as the "officiator" and I was myself, and my friend was proxy for _______ (my non-Mormon boyfriend who was killed in a car accident in high school). The officiator granted me my temple divorce, in accordance to civil divorce granted to me in the state of_________on date________ on the grounds of extreme physical cruelty, which went uncontested. Then, the officiator married me to my deceased high school boyfriend. The reason we did this, is that the Mormon church officials told me that my marriage could never be canceled, unless I had some other temple Mormon man to marry immediately afterwards. We also did a proxy sealing of my children to me. The Mormons claimed that my children (born years later, fathered by my second husband) would forever be sealed to my abusive temple ex-husband. I was particularly glad to straighten that out!
It didn't matter--we had just as much authority in my living room as the Mormon priesthood did in the temple. My dog participated, too, but she didn't like the veil. I read brief exerpts from Wordsworth, Robert Frost, and the Bible, which applied to my feelings about life, love, God, and justice. It took about 10-15 minutes--as long as the Mormon wedding ceremony.
My kids and the rest of the guests came for pizza and football-watching afterwards, and most thought it was just a regular ol'pizza party. I'm sure some people would have thought the ceremony was weird.
I really felt better! Ever since, I've felt completely separated from that entire temple nightmare--null and void!
Another ceremony was meaningful, because it was so non-ceremonial, so mundane. It was garbage day, and I was throwing out a garbage bag with banana peels, coffee grounds, and cat litter, and I had the sudden impulse to throw all my garments in there, too. I made a cup of coffee (no cup has ever tasted that good) and waited by the window, to watch the garbage truck pick it up. Oh, happy day!
Months later, I performed a special ritual to get rid of curses people have put on you, such as Mormon threats. I don't remember the chant, and it is a visualization, done with a black candles, at midnight, with the waning moon. It took about an hour. After the candle goes out, you bury it. When I was purchasing the black candle at the party store, I ran into my former Bishop, of all people! He asked me what the black candle was for. I said it was for a friend's fortieth birthday party. This was the bishop who had an affair with our neighbor's daughter, when her parents were away on a mission. This is weirder than buying a black candle, right?
Make your rituals more powerful than their rituals! It can be fun!
Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 09/10/2011 06:18PM by forestpal.