Posted by:
Lost Mystic
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Date: September 10, 2011 12:09AM
This story will "out" me to those who know me. Ldscam's story was painful to read...and it brought up feeling I strive to repress.
My ex-wife is TBM. When we met she was inactive. We met at one of my keg-parties. Long story made short, she felt guilty and started going to church, and convinced me to go along. I was duped and joined. We went through all kinds of crap and married in the temple. I felt like a caged animal and started drinking later on. She has a dependent personality and followed my lead. She started drinking as well. She got out of control, but our divorce was based on other matters. After I left her, she spiraled out of control. I would show up at daycare to pick him up knowing that she would try to pick him up drunk. I always told her that I would drive her anywhere if she needed a ride.
Anyway, she told her parents she needed help. They loved to pretend shit away and blamed me for it.
She drove drunk one morning and killed the other driver.
Her parents blame me, and in a way, I blame myself.
She only started drinking because of me...
A day doesn't go by without me thinking about it. They all use it as an example of the word of wisdom.
I constantly wonder if I hadn't started drinking, would the victim still be alive.
I know the LDS church isn't true, but I feel
Guilt anyway...
She served time in prison, and it has affected my son...
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 09/10/2011 09:41AM by Lost Mystic.