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another guy
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Date: November 14, 2010 02:47PM
I’ve seen earlier threads that asked “what was the last straw?” for someone to leave mormonism, and another that asked “what was the first straw?’. One of the “first straws” for me wasn’t a theological question – it was behavior modification.
It was a Sunday evening, when I was maybe 12 or 13 years old. We had gone to church three times that day (before they combined meetings): priesthood meeting in the morning, Sunday school at noon, and sacrament meeting in the late afternoon. That evening, there was a special “fireside” meeting at the bishop’s house that I was supposed to attend. I didn’t want to. My mother told me I WAS going, I said I WASN’T. This went on for a few times, until my mother had it with me and proceeded to beat the crap out of me, repeatedly slapping me and literally tearing my shirt off my back (because I had refused to change back into my Sunday clothes). I was then dropped off at the bishop’s house - I think it was my father who drove me. I remember sitting there at that fireside that evening, trying to hide the red swelling of my cheek, and hoping that the bleeding scratches on my back wasn’t showing through my shirt (where my mother torn my other shirt off me).
I don’t remember anything about that fireside meeting, but I DO remember the beating. I associated that beating with this fireside meeting, and I also generalized this to all of the boring church meetings, and then to the church itself. Classical conditioning.
I don’t know if there is anything special or specific to the mormon church that would have encouraged my mother to act this way. Would she have behaved the same way, no matter what religion we belonged to? She was born a Lutheran, and later joined the Pentecostal movement in her late teens, I believe. She converted to Mormonism one year before I was born. She didn't have a clue that her behavior was counter-productive; she thought that if I just attended the meetings, I'd be saved, I'd get closer to the church, and she would be doing her duty in raising her children in the church.
But then again, I don’t know if these other churches would have required four meetings on one day, either…