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Date: November 08, 2011 07:15PM
I was sitting here thinking about all the baggage I carry from the church, the guilt, the self-loathing, the perfectionism, but I suddenly realized what I took away from the church more than anything: They taught me how to lie.
As a church member, I learned to put on a false face every day, to lie to everyone and even myself about who I was inside and what I wanted out of life. I pretended to want the scripted Mormon life and told myself I wouldn’t be happy or fulfilled any other way. I learned to tell other people who were struggling that keeping the commandments, praying, and reading the scriptures had made me happy and helped me overcome my problems. I told myself that what was on the surface was really me.
But it was a big lie. All of it.