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Date: December 26, 2011 03:56AM
I'm not sure if any or many of you will remember me. I started a thread a few days ago asking "Is it REALLY a cult."
I am dealing with a lot of confusion about things. I just feel so messed up in my head.
I second guess EVERYTHING. And it's not just church related stuff I do this with either.
Sometimes, for example, I think I love my boyfriend. Then, I think, maybe I don't, maybe I'm just settling. Then I second guess that and go back and forth and round and round. That's just one example of something I do that with. I constantly grapple with whether or not I've made the right decisions/choices and on and on it goes.
I think I might have an anxiety disorder, and I think time in church may have contributed to it significantly.
I'm not really sure why I'm posting this. I guess I'm just wondering if others have felt the same feelings and what to do to sort through the craziness.