I found myself falling back into mo speak, though I fought it, and tears. My TBM bro and my son and I were eating, and my ex had just left after a blowup (he wasn't supposed to be there anyway, I don't know what is going on) after calling me a B in my house on Christmas Eve.

So, how do you get out of that rut? I pray still, but because my brother was there I decided to pray, my son doesn't know how and won't. I mean he doesnt know how the mo way. So, on Christmas morning my ex showed up again (for my son) but was a total ass, but he made us big breakfast and just started eating. So do those who are gay not pray?

Well, he didn't feel the spirit. I don't know what he was doing there either, I think he was a third wheel at his house where he lives.

My life is so freaking confusing right now...

Is it about praying, or is it really about your problems with your ex? Or about the prayer habits of gay people?

I hope you're less stressed today.

I gave the blessing over Christmas dinner. Those around the table included my Catholic wife, my son and his family who attend a Lutheran church, my daughter who has no religious affiliation and my inactive brother....I am the patriarch of the family now so I summon up whatever spirituality I have left and get on with it...