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Gay in SF
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Date: January 02, 2012 06:13PM
As an older gay man (57), I grew up during the time homosexuality was worse than murder. The teachings in priesthood often degenerated into "suicide is preferable over being queer" comments. Needless to say, I was bullied by the future leaders of the church. WHen I was a young teenager, the Stonewall riots occured, thereby ushering in the gay rights movement. I was young during much of the early changes.
However, I still suffer from "internalized homophobia", a condition where there is still shame associated being gay. I noticed years ago that when I run into my former tormenters, I become quiet about my gayness. I serve on an LGBT senior advocacy board, and many of our people suffer the same stigma. However, I have no problem being out at work. I also left the church years ago.
I wonder if other gay people in this forum also suffer from parts of internalized homophobia. ONe can't listen to the bigotry for years and it not effect one. Also, it amazes me to see the church state it has nothing against gay people.