Posted by:
Glenn
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Date: January 16, 2012 02:26PM
I've been out for about 17 years now. I have followed this BB for years and periodically check in for new updates and developments. Last week I decided to send in my email request for removal. My attitude has been of indifference, figuring they weren't bothering me and who cares if my name is still there it really carries no weight. But I realized after vising the boards again and catching up on some reading that I needed to completely severe the relationship officially for myself. Now, having sent the email I surprisingly feel very relieved to have no lingering ties.
Over the weekend I meet with my exmo family for a little get together at the park. The majority of family is still in Cult but most of us have woken up and we're out - everyone there was out. We found ourselves talking about the old temple ceremonies, JS and his wives that he took from other men, DNA, Archaeology, etc. My Brother's girlfriend was there who'd never associated with the Mormons, so it's always a little awkward when you're having these discussions with outsiders because you feel like an absolute idiot to have believed these fantasy stories. She watched Big Love so she has some frame of reference which helps. We had to explain the reality is that the beginnings of the Church is more like Warren Jeff's circus and over time it mainstreamed. We had to explain Warren Jeff's clan didn't mainstream which is why the world shuns their religion and way of life (not to mention it's illegal). If the Church hadn't mainstreamed they'd be no different then Warren Jeff's clan.
As we know, most current members have no idea what the Church's history involved they have the vanilla version sanitized, and then they're of course highly discouraged to research which keeps the blinders on.
I still have friends and family in the Church, accomplished Doctors, Engineers, Programmers, when it comes to politics they're all over it they watch the read, they're very educated. It's very puzzling how they exam everything but their religion, I really don't understand it.
Thank God I'm out, I just wish we'd never been in - the culture and the lies are embedded, like it or not. It's like we went to war together experienced this crazy thing together and can only relate to each other because of how unbelievable it was. The early seminary, the mission, the temple, the life. They took so much that the Church was my identity for a long period of my life. It took me a long while even after leaving to understand who I really am and establish an identity independent of the Church. I have lost friends and family relationships who are still bitter at me for having abandoned their religion and behind my back point to their justifications of why I left. On the other side, I've gained friends who aren't so narrow minded, many of my family members left the Morg, and my relationship with the world and people in it is open, explored, and enjoyed without the oppressive ideology which feels great.
Thanks exmormon.org for providing this valuable service and good luck brothers and sisters of the light it's not an easy path just be thankful you're awake now.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 01/16/2012 04:07PM by Glenn.