Is that it is only in a very limited capacity. They expect you to do all of the things that the elite do. Callings, tithing, recommend holding, raising up your family to the church, ALL of the rules, and sacrifices to the letter of the law.
What they don't tell you, is that you and your entire family are red flagged for your entire lives. You will never be considered for any calling that they view as in the upper echelons. You will never be given the respect that you deserve. You may forgive yourself, and feel that God has forgiven you, BUT they never will! And I mean NEVER!
In the meantime, they are thrilled to take your money your time and your family to use as they will.
If you ever want to advance yourself by being sealed to someone they will treat you like an ex convict applying for a bank job. If you think you can go back with a clean slate, and all is forgiven you are wrong wrong wrong! How do I know? I lived it.
The leadership from the top on down are unkind, unforgiving, unloving, condescending, and will use you up without a second thought. If they tell you they love you and want you back, please, I'm begging you to not believe that. Eventually YOU will pay a price for going back that you never imagined.