Posted by:
FreeAtLast
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Date: November 22, 2010 04:55PM
For three and a half decades, I was 'brainwashed' person who experienced bad headaches, mental 'lockup', and other symptoms associated with PTSD caused by cultic Mormonism, my manic-depressive, volatile, addicted-to-control TBM mother, and my chronically angry non-Mormon father. Like so many people raised in cultic Mo-ism, I avoided confrontation at all costs and didn't know how to handle myself in a conflict situation. That has all changed.
Normal, psychologically healthy people (they have good self-esteem!) stand up for themselves and aren't overcome by fear when circumstances require them to 'do battle' in order to protect themselves or their loved ones - physically, psychologically, or emotionally.
Latter-day Saints, on the otherhand, typically get very anxious when conflict arises and avoid it like the plague when they are in a 'lower' position. When in authority positions (e.g., as parents and church leaders), many of them become over-controlling and abusive, if only verbally.
How often have there been posts about visiting GA's lambasting members or LDS missionaries for not doing enough? The 'sheeple' sit there and take the BS. What's needed is for a congregation member to yell out "FUCK YOU, MORON!" But you won't hear that because of how Latter-day Saints have been 'programmed'.
Is it possible, through counseling and/or hypnotherapy, for example, to get 're-programmed' so that a person feels basically OK with conflict and confrontation? Yes.
When all factors of each individual's healing/recovery path are considered, each one is unique. However, wholeness is the common destination.
Processing repressed emotions like anger, which Mormonism didn't allow us to experience because it was 'bad', is just one of a no. of elements of the healing process of many people leaving the chronically dishonest, patriarchal and abusive LDS Church.
Working through family-of-origin issues, including more subtle manipulation/coercion as well as overt abuse in so many LDS families, has been an important part of the healing journey of many ex-Mormons.
As one's self-esteem heals, one finds that one can handle conflict and confrontation better, one step at a time. If a person is committed to fully healing and maturing psychologically, there comes a point where they know within themselves that they can engage in conflict - even to defend themselves physically, if necessary - with strong confidence. At that point, there is no fear of confrontation. We can be a 'tiger', if the situation calls for it because we've transformed and empowered ourselves.