Posted by:
dogzilla
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Date: May 08, 2012 09:57AM
Robin Wrote:
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> How old you were? Parents remarry? Step siblings
> or half siblings? Visitation? Could they bOth
> come to important life events like graduations and
> marriage? DO you think it had any part in your
> choices regarding marriage? To marry or not or to
> stay married or not? Very interesting that you
> feel good about it all. Good for you! Why do you
> think that was?
I will respond to this for my experience (I know you weren't talking to me), because I very much related to the post above.
My parents were both nevermo when they split up. I was about 6 years old when they divorced. Prior to the divorce, my dad was an alcoholic, so there were a lot of terribly violent fights and very few happy times. One day, Dad told my sister and I he was taking us out for ice cream. I knew, right when he said that, that he was going to announce their divorce. I was SIX. But I knew that parents split up sometimes and mine acted like they hated each other, so I was HAPPY to hear this news. There would be no more fighting and no more dad hitting mom and no more throwing of heavy objects around the house. DELIGHTED.
I never once thought it was my fault or that my sister and I did anything wrong or that we had anything to do with anything at all. My parents were obviously ill-suited for each other and did not get along. Why should people who hate each other stay together? After the divorce, everything was great. Two Christmases, two birthdays, etc. Parental guilt meant that both parents took us to the zoo and the park and to do all kinds of fun stuff.
Then my dad married the waitress he'd been banging behind mom's back. The waitress was a fallen mormon. Within a couple of years, she managed to get him to take the discussions and get baptized. She'd been exed for living with him, so after his baptism, a year later, he re-baptized her. They went to the temple a year after that. My mom never remarried.
My stepmom had a son and 4 daughters -- the youngest of which was ten years older than me. It was her son who later moved into our house (after his wife threw him out for cheating on her) and began molesting me.
In regard to milestone events, that's been hit-or-miss. Usually, one or the other would show up and that was fine if it was like a play I was in or something that ran several nights so each could get a chance to attend. Not that dad thought things like recitals were worth his time. He rarely bothered and if he did go, he'd criticize the performance to us later. (My dad is a douche.) They were both at my sister's 1st wedding and I * think * they were both at our high school graduations. If I recall correctly, drama ensued at all three events. They all traveled down to my college for my college graduation, without any drama, and managed to all get along well (fifteen years after the divorce). The main source of the drama was my stepmom acting like she was entitled to credit for raising two awesome girls, and acting as if my mom was some gutter crack whore who beat us or something. Mom was not evil just because she wasn't a mormon. Stepmom always acted jealous and threatened by her and my mom and dad always managed to get along, so I think she felt threatened that mom could be cool and dad could be cool.
How this effected my view of relationships: I have no interest in marrying. I don't want children and I don't see the point. It's clear to me that the right match for you at age 20 is a totally different person than the right match for you at age 30 or 40. So I think this marriage-for-life business doesn't make any realistic sense. While some people do manage to marry the love of their life and stay that way for 50-60 years, I think for most of us, that's just not realistic. Our needs change over time. We should have the option to partner up with people who meet those needs, if the original partner can no longer meet the changing needs. Also, my mom is a passive-aggressive, narcissistic, manipulative doormat. She attracts controlling, manipulative, patriarchal jerks (you know, like my dad). My model for relationships is very unhealthy and the idea of a healthy long-term (for life) monogamous marriage not only sounds like mythology to me, but it's a total mystery to me as to how that ever happens. I don't think I have the relationship tools to stay with someone for 40-50 years and I thank my parents for that. It's not the divorce that taught me that; it's the two dysfunctional marriages. I think divorce is a healthy productive thing if the relationship isn't either one of those things. So, for my dollar, staying in an unhealthy, dysfunctional relationship "for the kids" is the worst thing you can do, unless you want to model unhealthy relationship behaviors for your children.