Posted by:
ambivalent exmo
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Date: July 27, 2012 08:47PM
Decided to skip the tbm family function....
After trying to prepare myself mentally
for 3 days in advance, I finally smartened up.
Why would I _EVER_ want to spend even ten minutes with people who do not like me?
Who have no respect for my beliefs, choices and individuality??!?
Who belittle me as a woman, a sister, a daughter?
Who openly scorn my parenting skills and life choices?
Who want me to be tolerant of their Mormon attitudes & accompanying actions,
yet they have zero tolerance for mine.
Why would I want to spend any time with people who openly question my sanity, and make jokes about the "crazy" apostate sister in front of their children?
In real life, I would NEVER be friends with any of these people. EVER.
Deep breath' mo.......
I'm done abusing myself by continuing to have anything but passing contact with the majority of my large family, including/especially my mom.
Family first?, my ass.
I haven't been able to sleep in 24 hours, and
I actually had a panic attack this afternoon. I haven't had one in almost 3 months.
Ptsd is kicking my ass today.
Hey thanks family!
Yeah, fuckyouverymuch.
Sorry, had to vent.
Rough afternoon, but I feel a bit better now....
Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 07/27/2012 08:57PM by Susan I/S.