Posted by:
summer
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Date: September 08, 2012 09:43PM
I would like to see you give religion a rest for a while. Take a break. Enroll in a non-church school.
Just look at the language that you are using to describe your experience with Mormonism: words and phrases such as, "screwed my life up," "never been happy," fear, destroys, brainwashed, "horrible bad person," unworthy, etc. These are not happy words. These are not the words of someone who is spiritually fulfilled. The well where you have been trying to draw water is dry. You must slake your thirst elsewhere.
Of course you can be a good person without religion. Of course you can have a happy marriage and family life. You could also, in time, explore the possibility of affiliating yourself with a church with a more positive outlook (those churches are out there, I assure you.) Are you aware that virtually all Christians believe that they will be reunited with family and loved ones once again after they die?
Are you aware that there were several first vision accounts, all of them different? That competent Egyptologists have completely discredited the Book of Abraham? That most of the witnesses to the Book of Mormon later said that they only saw the golden plates with their "spiritual eyes?"
Please peruse the Mormon Think website if you have not done so already. There is a wealth of information there about the true history of the church -- the history that the church never shared with you.
http://mormonthink.com/