Posted by:
ItsLonelyAtTheTop
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Date: September 10, 2012 09:30PM
I like to think of it in a more tragic way:
No matter how strongly any religion person denies it, they all doubt at some point. Doubting takes no effort. Faith takes effort. In a moment of clarity there is no denying that the "evidence" for any god or religion is convoluted at best. Looking around at their physical reality at any moment, there is no direct evidence of their beliefs.
None of the "Prophets" have been stupid men. Certainly the last few are college educated. They were indoctrinated young and there were always lots of older people to validate their beliefs. The older they got and the higher they got in the church the narrower their peer group got, but there was always some older, higher ranked Mormon to affirm.
Eventually they become an Apostle and, even though they know they haven't seen any proof of their God, the club is small and I'm sure they never voice their doubt to eachother. Afterall, they have a comfortable and important position when most men are being forced to retire.
At the same time all along the've been validating these beliefs to the younger, lower ranked officials; continuing the cycle.
They probably secretly hope all along that some revelation will be given to them. Some actual affrimation from the divine.
Then one day, after having gone through the motions for 80 or so years, they are made Prophet, Seer, and Revelator for the One True Church. I'm sure its overwhelming and busy at first, like it is for anyone taking the reigns of a vast business empire, but eventually they get some peace and quiet; a moment to themselves.
All along they've been told that God speaks directly and face to face with the Prophet. That he has spoken to Prophets both ancient and modern.
So they enter the Holy of Holys in the Salt Lake City Temple and, I don't know if they do it outloud or only in their minds, they try to address God, and receive no response. Perhaps they become more earnest, but still nothing.
After 80-something years of believing that, while they don't have the direct evidence, that someone, somewhere does. That some old man whose every word they obey does have contact with the divine. That each level they went up they still received nothing, but were always sure the next level would be the one where they finally receive that vision or revelation.
But now, he's at the top, all alone, with no one, God or Man, to reassure or validate him. 80-or-so wasted years, and still a few more to go. He can't turn back now. There is still one more level to go. Maybe in death it will finally come.
No matter what injustices these men may be a party to, it's still a supremely cruel punishment.