I can't seem to stop crying. I never even met him in person, but since I can't stop thinking of him, I felt it therapeutic to write this:

I wanted you to know

Your impact you'll now never know
Why did you have to go?

I wanted to tell you my feelings inside
But my shyness just wouldn't subside

Now all that's left is regret
Because life wasn't done with you yet.

And if you were here
From the mountaintops I would declare

How valuable you are
Indeed you were a star

Tears flow here because we care
That your suffering you just couldn't share

Why does it have to be?
Why couldn't you be here so you could see?

How much love we have for you here
Without you, it'll never be the same, I fear.

I wish you peace
And your suffering to cease

Because you deserved so much more
We'll never forget you, evermore.

I loved you xyz. I hope you are happy, safe, and at peace wherever you are now.
Adieu.



Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/28/2013 03:51PM by FormerLatterClimber.

Beautiful! I feel so much sadness right now.

He will never how much I loved him and how much happiness he brought me.

Thank you for sharing this, I know your words speak for so many of us who are dealing with this sad sad news.

That's beautiful FormerLatterClimber. Thank you. I hope he knew how amazing he was.

Love that guy.

Lovely poem.
Thanks for posting it, it's beautiful.

That was fantastic, FormerLatterClimber. I have been crying on-and-off since reading msmom's post yesterday and the thread and links today dialed-up the devastated feelings.

Your tribute is beautiful. I hope XYZ knew how much he was loved here and how much of a difference he made. Like you, I'm kind of reserved about saying those things on a board with people I only know through their words, but I did tell XYZ. Someone snarked a reply that I was an @$$-kisser or some such. That reply got deleted almost immediately, but it made me hesitate to do it again with other posters I admire. XYZ's death and your poem remind me that it's important to say (write) those things.

I might be misremembering, but I think you added to what I posted that day with your own appreciation of XYZ. I'm terrible with names, so I could be wrong, but the clever word play in your board name is attached to that memory for some reason.

I have to go fetch a new box of Kleenex now because your tribute turned me into a waterworks mess.

(((Hugs)))

Hugs to you Surrender Dorothy. I do remember the instance, and yeah you remember correctly. I agree, it's so important to tell people how you feel when you feel it. This moment we have is our only guarantee in life. We just never know if there'll be another chance to say it.

I'm confused. Isn't there a post from 'xyz' from today...?

It's dated 2012. Beth topped it in his memory.

I'm bummed that he killed himself. WHY???? I guess there was a LOT more pain than anyone knew about.

I'm very sad about this.

WAIT WHAT?????

I thought he was taking a break!!!!

I just can't stand this. xyz? So outrageous. So brave. So funny. So dear.

I mean, who didn't want to go to his party?

I can't stop reading your poem FormerLatterClimber. It is stunning. He deserved it.