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Date: March 11, 2013 12:29AM
This is just my experience in TSCC, Primary, YW, Institute and at BYU--but--yes, you were trained to be passive and even submissive. Remember all those Mormon lessons on "obedience"?
I had to retrain myself when I became a single mother (and head of household and breadwinner) and when I re-entered the workforce, after years of being a stay-at-home-mom.
Read "When I say NO I Feel Guilty" and "The Assertive (not aggressive) Woman". These two books and some classes in assertiveness training helped me a great deal. Something interesting--in the dialogs and examples in the book, I found the same manipulative techniques that the Mormons had been using on me for years! Assertiveness training tells you how to deal with these techniques.
The MOrmon church also teaches over and over that whatever happens bad is YOUR fault--not the church's, not the leaders', not the doctrine, not the Mormon society. Only you are to blame.
While I was ill, I took very easy, once-a-week temporary job in an office that was a hornets' nest of Mormon women in competition with each other. Every time I was there, someone would be crying in the ladies' bathroom. Some days, there would be an empty desk, where someone just stopped showing up and never returned. So much energy was going toward blaming and scapegoating, that the customers were not being served properly. The gossip and back-stabbing was so stressful and unpleasant, that I quit after a few months and went back to my own stressful full-time job--which was a relief, even though it was much longer hours.
This stress of being ashamed and uncomfortable is taking its toll on you!
The Mormons also tell people to not listen to their own heart. They should only have those warm fuzzy feelings that say the church is true--but any other intuitions are probably of the Devil. In your case, I promise you that there is a REASON you feel so squirmy around this co-worker. Follow your gut! She is definitely undermining you. She does not like you. She might be after your job. You need to not only "write her up" but fire her, if it is in your power. Work is tough enough, and you need to work with someone who is compatible with you. You owe it to yourself, your customers, clients, and the company to be 100% on the task at hand.
Return and report that that jackass is outta there!