Sometimes I'll make eye contact with someone at church and wonder "hey, what if they're secret ex-mos?" Does anyone else do that, regardless of how realistic it is?
I have a good friend who I really thought was a secret exmo, just keeping things under wraps until his mom died. But he just got set apart as a high priest a few weeks ago so I had to sigh and accept the fact he was probably just an unenthusiastic believer.
I also look for ex-bishop Jackwagon and the First Minion occasionally when someone mentions something rare that pertains to them. For example, BJ has a rather weird pet and I've heard posters mention they have that same pet, so I'll go back and read their old posts until I'm convinced it's just a pet coincidence. The reality is that while there are people I wish would show up here or that I suspect are secret exmos, like so much in life I think I'm going to be surprised at who actually leaves Mormonism. I would never have pegged me as someone who would leave, for example. I guess I should be nicer to those who seem the most brainwashed because you never know when they might need me.
I wondered that occasionally too, but living in Orem, it seems that everyone in my neighborhood is a perfect morgbot. If there are any, they are very deeply closeted.
Oh, and kind of related, sometimes my bishop will make eye contact with me when he's saying hello in the hall and he just has _that_ look. I know it most likely means that he knows something that I don't want him to know, but it's weird.
I actually think my bishop is a closet doubter. When I first moved into the ward I thought he was a counselor because his testimony has a "gratefulmony" and he only used the "I know" on very general gospel principles. I set up a time and spoke to him about my doubts and he basically confirmed that they were all hard things to get over and that he too had struggled with them although be it in the past. I told him that the "spirit" had told me specific things that didn't end up happening, he also agreed the spirit had told him specific things that never happened, but then caught himself and said that I'm still waiting for to happen. We spoke about an hour before he "bore testimony" by saying "its not the specific details that are important you have to remember that its the principles that are true" referring to faith, repentance, etc. I tried to explain that this church claims to be the one and only true church and that its all package deal as far as I can see, if the BofA is a false translation then the BofM goes down with it, he did his best to downplay the importance of the BofA and other controversial things and again reiterate belief in God and prayer. Who truly knows what he believes, I doubt he posts on exmormon, but I have my suspicions that hes a closet doubter.
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One of my science teachers often forgets to ask someone to say the closing prayer (welcome to church schools!) and ends up saying it himself. Folded hands rather than arms, either in front of his face or with his forehead resting on his hands, and it's always just the "we thank thee" part of the prayer and no "we ask thee..." part. Makes me wonder.
I actually wonder this all the time. Even more intriguing I am curious if any exmos that go to church are also here, but am afraid to reveal my real identity. I also wonder if anyone I know from my mission is here. If only we could have some psychic connection.
I wonder this all the time just because I don't think any of my acquaintances would suspect me of being anything other than a TBM. Too bad there isn't some sort of secret rfm code so we could easily find eachother.
Sometimes I want to post anonymously (anon-anon instead of regular screen name anon, just in case, lol) "Are any of you Brother So-and-so that I know from XYZ place? If so, email me!"
Without the gigantic lie of eternal families the church would already be dead. I know a lot of people who just go because they are scared to be honest with themselves and with their families. And lets be honest, most people are followers.
There is a person I respect but one that I have seriously wronged, I know he has had struggles with the church and everytime I see a story that could be his my stomach turns
The Sunday School teacher says some things that make me wonder. He talks about the Savior a lot even when the lessons aren't about Jesus at all. It's just little things he says that seem not the normal way that I'm used to. I think he has a little of his own flavor going on. I've also noticed plenty of people don't bother singing the hymns. They just don't seem to care.
He asks questions that require people to raise a hand in agreement. I wonder if he does that to identify who doesn't raise their hand.
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I wonder if some of my TBM family members are reading but overall I think that's just a fantasy I wish were true. I can see some of my extended family showing up here, but not really anyone else. You never know though!
I've had some people who let me know they're stalking me on RFM.
I changed my name. I haven't announced it here yet, because I don't want them to know. Maybe in a couple of weeks, when they think i've left and no longer post.
I chose the name Francine because of the new Pope. My weird sense of humor makes me think that's funny.
Ten points to anyone who knows who i was two weeks ago. Love you all, and sorry I can't be more up front at the moment.
I may have to take you up on that challenge! I don't blame you though, I get paranoid too. I say too much most of the time but then sometimes I don't care.