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thinker
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Date: March 17, 2013 08:51PM
Let me start off by saying that I have been out of the church for over 3 years and have had my name removed from the church rolls.
So a couple of days ago, I went out to grab the mail and found an envelope addressed to me with no return address. I opened it and was shocked to find that someone had anonymously sent me the first talk I ever gave in church (about 12 years ago). I had such a weird combination of emotions as I realized what I was holding in my hands. At first, I found it amusing that someone had sent it to me (I mean, we all know what the motives were behind this, don't we?)
I immediately tried to remember who it was that had asked for a copy of my talk after I'd given it. I do remember SOMEONE asking me for a copy, and I remember telling them they could have the copy I was holding in my hand at the time, because I also had it on my computer.
I was a little curious to see what I had written, and started to read the talk out loud to my husband, but I honestly started to feel sick to my stomach as I read my words. I was suddenly thrown back to that time in my life, back to when the anesthetic was slowly entering my veins and I was being numbed into blind obedience.
My emotions went from surprise to curiosity to anger in less than 5 minutes. I told my husband that I couldn't possibly finish reading it, nor did I have any desire to, and asked if he would like to be part of the ceremony I had in mind. He happily agreed. We went out to our barbecue and placed my talk on the grill. He lit the match for me and I took care of the rest.
I am very interested to know...what would any of you have done?
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 03/17/2013 08:51PM by thinker.