Posted by:
nomo28
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Date: March 20, 2013 10:00PM
I just read through about 8 stories of members who left the church. I was in tears reading some of these! I am happy, however, that these members were able to find peace in their decisions to leave.
I also started to feel like an @$$ too. I started to think back to all of the TBMs I knew in Utah, and how I may have judged them (internally) a little too harshly. I began to think back to the kids I knew in high school and college. I wondered to myself, how many of them were dealing with the same anxieties and depression as most of you were? How many of these good-hearted people, did I blow off and ignore because I thought them to be too cookie-cutter for my taste? Who could I have helped? I know I would not have been able to help much, being nevermo myself, but I could have lent an ear, or been a shoulder to cry on if they ever felt comfortable enough to tell me their feelings.
I am in my late 20's now, and a little more wiser than when I lived in Utah. I became defensive when judged by these TBM's, who did not understand there was life and culture outside of Utah. But I also try not to beat myself up too much, because I know many of these people would have never trusted me enough to open up with their anxieties, because I did not understand, or was part of their culture.
There are moments with my experiences in Utah that I think about that piss me off. I will get to my story one day, once work and school settle down a bit lol! Although I have never been in the situation of leaving the church, my heart truly breaks for those of you who had to struggle through difficult times. I am glad you have found peace now, and know you have made the right decision, whatever it is. I commend those who do not believe anymore, but continue attending for the happiness of your families. That is a strong sacrifice to make, and you are a great person for being able to suffer through the hardships, yet please your family as well.
I apologize for the length and rambling. I am truly touched by many of your stories, and I hope you are successful on your path to peace and happiness!