Posted by:
anon123
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Date: January 25, 2011 10:03AM
I'm mad at myself. I'm mad I believed all this. I'm mad I believed this was the "one true church". I HATE that I believed that the adulterous polygamous pervert Joseph Smith was a prophet. I'm mad at myself for believing so long that gays, lesbians, etc. that they had a choice. I didn't think they were evil, and I always thought "well if they love each other, that's what counts.". I always thought they chose who they dated, and now that I know better it bugs me. Just everything of this makes me so mad. Seminary is becoming ridiculous. Today we talked about church and you know, it didn't sound like he felt any better after the three hours, he just focused on how hard it is. I NEVER feel the "spirit" on Sundays. And whenever I've felt the "spirit" it's more been inner peace, and that doesn't exist on Sundays. You know what I wake up to? EVERY SUNDAY? My siblings. Fighting. Over ANYTHING! I don't know how my parents see this. I have come to sleeping all day Sundays just so I don't have to deal with this family on Sundays. Because we don't even act like a family!
A few more things. It makes me mad that they fought against equal rights for women without actually saying WHY. Sure they had the mask on that answered the questions but I know it's just a mask. It even makes me more ticked that they spent MILLIONS of DOLLARS to fight against equal rights for those who want to marry the same gender. As if it was an attack on them! These people deserve an equal life just like the rest of us. The $3 mill mall makes me mad, and I can go on and on and on. But I won't. How long does this "anger" stage last?
*sigh*
530 more days.
Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 01/25/2011 10:24AM by anon123.