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Gay Philosopher
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Date: August 07, 2013 11:11PM
Hi Jon,
It sounds as if you're in a good position, and that your only real problem with the Church is that its tenets are false, while you want to live in accordance with what you believe to be true. Is that right?
What, exactly, do you believe right now? Are any beliefs worth giving up your marriage and your relationship with your son for? If you take the view that the Church is just a social club, you could keep all of the benefits that you now enjoy, and not cause anyone any harm.
Jon, most of the significant beliefs that people adopt appear to be mythological in character. Darwinian evolution (which I accept not as a theory, but a fact) has mythological aspects, such as the problem of not living long enough (millions of years) to personally be able to observe speciation occurring. Most beliefs require some type of faith.
If you swapped out Mormonism for atheism, who is to say that you wouldn't go from false to out-and-out bad? That is, all of your wife's friends would go away. Your son would be hurt. Some new faces might eventually appear, but they probably wouldn't be nearly as close and committed as the existing friends that you now have are. No matter where you go, people are people. Human nature remains human nature. Infighting isn't a moral failing or strange sociological artifact of Mormonism. It arises from human nature.
No, Mormonism isn't what it claims to be, but neither is any other religion. They're just cultural masquerades behind which lie dominance hierarchies and the exercise of power. This is true in every organization. In my mind, it just doesn't make any sense to give up all of the good things that you have and cause great harm to your family for no good reason. Why on earth would you do that? It's a lose-lose proposition.
Yes, you could say that you don't want to affiliate with a church that's anti-gay, and that represents itself as one thing while, in fact, it's nothing of the kind. You don't want your tithing money to support activities that you don't believe in, and that cause harm to others, such as Proposition H8, or proselyting based on falsehoods. I understand. But I also understand that life involves a set of tradeoffs at every turn. You're not actively harming anyone, yourself. Adults have to make their own decisions. You can't save people from themselves.
Can you find a way to treat your Church involvement as purely social, and enjoy the benefits without incurring any real liabilities? If so, do it.
John Dehlin was in the same position that you're in now, and he decided to take the blue pill and stay in the Church, even though he knows that it's false. What is it about the Church that bothers you so much? There are lots of great people in it. By all means, Jon, study and educate yourself, but let others--such as your wife, and when he grows up, your son--do the same on their own schedule (if ever).
Also, you might want to read my thread,
http://exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,983636We're like iron filings caught up in the invisible electromagnetic fields of power that pervade society. No matter what you do, you're going to be pulled into one or another of those fields. Why not pick one that you know and has benefitted you? You have to be realistic about the consequences of attempting to leave. You'd need some pretty significant justification for risking your marriage and potential harm to your son.
What, exactly, is bothering you so much? How, exactly, is Mormonism harming *you*?
What, specifically, drove you to see a psychotherapist (not that that's a bad thing)?
Good Luck,
Steve