Wst of all;Im sorry for using the "M" word when I flew off the handle. It has been a rocky 2 mos.w/many twists & turns. 2nd I'd like to apologise to WCG. . Part of the problem is my smart ph. only takes about 350 characters a post. So I have to cont. posts. I had only done half my post,so as a result I felt called out. I realize that was not the case!3rd Im sorry 4 airing dirty fam laudry. I think I felt like it's interwoven w/moism.& I had vented enough about tscc.so that was next.As for couseling...

SEE I can only do so much at a time. Yes counseling would be good for me. Aside from having some bad experiances w/counselors. Living in the belly of the beast,Im 90% sure Id get an lds counselor. Ive calling their crisis line,And if I ask them if their LDS they always stammer than so no. But when I talk about tscc,you can hear the disbelief & tension in their voices. Needless to say I have trust issues w/that! I would also like to thank those who apologized or expressed support 4 me. It helped alot! THX!!!

Just so all y'all know.

THANK YOU!!!

PS. Just so you know,I think I do understand about the praying &pleading before god, & it not working. I mentioned to my TBM DD that I thought If I did everything rights, god would open up the heavens &solve all my problems. She laughted(rather arigontly) & said thats not the church teaches! I said really have u read the BoM & OT!?!It is frusterating making sense out of things. I guess Im a universalist, I dont believe any one religion has all the answers. And I dont think anyones going to hell for atheism.

So a Lannister is not a Stark?

I am just glad that you are OK. I worried a lot last night about you. I struggle everyday with urges and thoughts to kill myself, but I'm too indecisive and so I'm able to find reasons to keep going. Anyway, so I felt for you.

OH Thanks! And Im so srry You have to deal w/that too! Its hard have a choice like that hanging over your head. One thing that keeps me going,Is that its perminant! No takey backsies! But Ya 2 members of my dads family had & my dads death is questionable.Best THOUGHTS & HUGGS to YOU! lara

Cowardlylion, You are the opposite of cowardly. You are brave because you express yourself, because you are facing and dealing with multiple challenges. Also you seem very caring and insightful.



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Lovely to hear you are feeling better love. YOu sound SO much better. You take care of yourself, there are LOTS of us who care about you here.

The funny thing is, CL, I really don't care if someone believes in God. Some people need to. Take my sister, for instance. She has lost two children in two separate car accidents. One was her 3 year old son and she was driving. The other was her teenage daughter who had pulled a scam on her and wasn't where she told her she would be. It's unfortunate that the God my sister believes in is the Mormon God. He blesses her with hope then damns her with guilt.

It is my hope that your God and your faith in this God only blesses you.


p.s. Apology not necessary, but thanks.



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