Posted by:
The 1st FreeAtLast
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Date: August 19, 2013 05:01AM
Welcome to the rest of your life, lemonsalt! Really. Now that you've realized that the foundation of Mormonism was a bunch of lies and the LDS 'house', so to speak, was 'faith'-promoting church propaganda combined with a lot of concocted requirements to keep Latter-day Saints busy, busy, busy, you're psychologically free to do with the rest of your life whatever you want.
You get to choose what's best for you, to create the type of life you desire. Cultic Mo-ism is about praying, paying, and otherwise obeying. It's also about mentally regurgitating ideas, including many nonsensical ones, that came from the minds of Joseph Smith and other Mormon 'prophets' since the early 19th century.
You were never obliged to believe what the LDS 'tribe' has believed. It was always your right to question and scrutinize what the LD$ Church systematically indoctrinated you to believe was 'true', 'the will of the Lord', and 'of God'. Crucially, you have the right to always think for yourself.
There is info. online about the psychological effects of Mormonism that may be of interest to you:
http://members.shaw.ca/blair_watson/One or more of the books listed at the bottom of the webpage may 'speak' to you.
The remainder of your life - a few decades, I imagine - is about you experiencing what you desire. As you go through your process of psychologically moving past Mormonism (people on this board are helpful in terms of providing encouragement and useful info., BTW), you'll likely discover new things about yourself. Greater self-awareness is a good thing; personal growth depends on it.
Kindly know that there is no question you can't ask here and no subject you can't broach. Leaving Mormonism is typically a big challenge because of how it mentally and emotionally defines people and creates their LDS ego (sense of self). Post-Mormonism involves learning to create another, much healthier psychological framework for oneself as well as accepting ourselves just as we are - and being authentic.
You might want to consider some professional counseling to help you through this transition phase in your life. Other former Mormons have said that counselor or psychotherapist support was very helpful to them.
There are also ex-Mormon support groups:
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http://www.exmormon.org/helpers.htm- via the drop-down menu (Our Community > Post-Mormon Chapter - states, countries, etc.) at
http://www.postmormon.org/exp_e/#
Best wishes!