I know just what you mean about the food already being blessed. this happened a lot on my mission we would go to some members house and they would give us some food with the disclaimer that it had already been blessed. I didn't want to push it but I always thought to myself "so what, it is not an ordinance, it should just be giving thanks for what you are eating not something you just chec
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So the whole blessing the food thing was something that always bothered me in the church. People always acted like it was some sacred ordinance that if not preformed will cause your food to turn into toxic bites of death. The whole thing in Mormonism is turned into a completely empty prayer where you say the same damn things over and over without giving it any thought. I always hated how insin
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So all of the talk about polygamy lately got me thinking more about Fanny Alger. I looks to me that there is no record of her and Joseph Smith actually being married. She is only listed as a wife because we know that Joseph Smith had sex with her. I just wanted to know from you guys if this is actually the case or not. The whole thing really bugs me because something like this should be totall
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For me it was going to BYUI after my mission that got me really doubting. I got really turned of by just how impersonal the student wards were. You are just a number there and I would feel nothing when I went. It made me question why I even bother to go. It, and all the other things you are supposed to do turned into just hoops to jump through. That and all the other BS that goes there made m
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So I had the unfortunate experience of being at BYUI when I stop believing in the church. I had read 1984 a few months before in one of my classes. As I lost my belief and the blinders cam off I was struck by how similar the way BYUI was run and the way things were run in 1984. It was like the administers were using 1984 as their guide. here are a few things that are similar: thought crime:
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I think a lot of it depends on what you knew. I know on my mission I did not really know about all the issues surrounding the church, so I don't feel like I was dishonest. I do how ever feel some guilt because I led people who trusted me astray, I did not try to find out both sides of the story but I just went along with what I was told. I don't think it is something that I should beat my self
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Mormons have lots of beliefs that now that I am out really just seem crazy. I think one of the ones that always makes me shake my head is how they see satan. They think that they are locked in a epic battle with him. You can always hear them talk about how smart he is and how he is trying to bring them and the church down. It is literary the belief that an evil invisible man and his host of
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