What made me stop believing? Hmmmm...well, yeah, the obvious..THAT of course. Several reasons, actually. 1. I've always had a problem with the whole F&T meeting "IKNOWTHECHURCHISTRUEJOSEPHSMITHISAPROPHETOFGOD" garbage. I've even voiced that to member friends and said "does anyone here have an original thought?" Whenever I bore my testimony, I never said that. That right
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Oh yeah, I was a believer. I went back to the church Aug 2008 and married hubby April 2009. Boy did I think I hit the jackpot...devout, priesthood holder, swore I'd do it differently. I think someone posted on here recently about going back to the church because they were out of control and figured going back to LDS was the way to go. That's me to a "T." It helped me out in the "cr
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Boy, that's a tough one. I'm not convinced that he would be trying to please his dad (although it would...hell, his dad would be DEAD before he serves anyway!). Hubby has always been a strong individual and thinks for himself, but from my conversation with him last night, he is "in it to win it." He is a TOTAL BELIEVER in the patriarchal blessing, and his mentions that people will oppos
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OK, I hear what you are saying...but if I ask him to handle it or else, isn't that kind of an ultimatum? And why is it OK for me to do it, but if he does it to me, it's manipulation? Shit oh dear, what has this church done to my f*%king head!!???
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Thanks for your thoughts, Wink. I don't know when I became such a namby-pamby...when I've gotten a divorce in the past, I have had no problem just accepting it and having valid reasons for it. I'm beginning to think if it's even worth it with this situation. I used to be a pretty hard-assed person, and I don't want to go down THAT road again, but hells-bells, I also don't want this frigging churc
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I had to think about the conversation, but yes, he did say he loves me...but the tone of the conversation was definitely different when I "dropped the bomb." His parents are not cold people, but he's commented to me on numerous times that he has very little respect for his mother and her luke-warm attitude toward the church. She is always complaining about health issues and does not
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No, he has been VERY unhappy living apart, but we had no choice as we cannot make it on one income and my profession is too well-paying. His family is VERY active (one brother is his bishop) and my husband is super strong-willed...I find it hard to believe that his family will ever make up his mind for him, but then again, I guess he's never had to deal with something like this. I don't have a
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So, I finally told my husband my feelings of ambivalence about the church. In previous posts, I stated that my situation is very unique and easily recognized in print by anyone who knows me (i.e. members) but at risk of exposure, I could really use some support/advice. My husband and I have been married for 1 1/2 years and he was practically BIC; I am a convert. We were both divorced parents,
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LOL! So many of these stories could have been my own! My hubby always LOVED being the WC, but he is slow as molasses and rarely got into the chapel before one was picked. He's quite tall, chiseled, and striking looking, so I can totally relate to the superficiality of it all. I didn't mind doing it, but it creeped me out to be kneeling at the alter and being eye level to the old temple-worker's j
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of what I post on here (my situation is VERY unique and would be easily recognizable), but I do want to say that it helps to hear the diversity of opinion/insight I have been reading on this thread. I was inactive for the majority of my conversion (baptized in '97, re-active two years ago), but I don't regret getting active again...at that stage of my life I really needed it. My life was spiralin
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I'm new to the board...no one in the ward knows that I've had these feelings, but I can relate to every word. Had my first beer last night with a trusted friend (even smoked...just to prove I wouldn't be struck dead...surprise, I'm still here!). My DH doesn't know any of this, but I suppose it will be a test to see if we make it. Right now, I'm just happy to be able to voice my doubts. My m
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