<<<virtual hug>>> I have so many responses for you but I too have to work. Just hoping that telling you how much I'm nodding my head in understanding and how deeply what you said resonates with me gives you a good vibe and that the cold/cold meds let up on you. I can't take pseudoephedrine products, they do major weirdness to my mind. Be safe, be well. I am thinking of yo
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Thank you for saying that. Shaking my head here...I wish you didn't have any of that happen to you, but I feel so much less isolated just hearing you express it that way. Everything you said was my experience too. So true, I'm still running. Sometimes, I feel like such a freak because I try and describe the surreal experience of narcissistic abuse and I can't find the words to convey it well e
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"I wanted the f#ck out of this life." Oh, goodness, yes, I've felt that. I'm so glad we both chose treatment instead.
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That makes me think of Scrooge McDuck and his money bin. I wonder if ChurchCo has a #1 dime? I also wondered for a second about the safety of swimming in karma soaked cash, but I'm sure the cult has had it thoroughly laundered. ;-)
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Did they pick up the tab? I totally would've lost my composure. I think I might even have tossed a beverage right out of its glass into a face or two. What a lowlife, nasty person they must be. I hope you told them exactly where they could shove their downline.
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Wow. A blue bike being a sign of BP. Do you mind if I share that one in my trauma support group? There are a few people with BP who will get a kick out of such a way off target diagnostic approach. I'll let you know how many of them have blue bikes. Seriously, that's a really awful experience, Catnip. I'm glad you are free of that person, that you have a relationship with your kid/grandkids a
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I'll have to watch it. Really curious now because I am dealing with memories and the mixed up sense of identity I had as a kid, with all the gaslighting and projection in our house.
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I really try hard to bring back positive results to my therapist and doctors, because I don't want to make them feel like they're not helping. Actually, trying really hard to please them is a good thing, I think, because you might be more diligent about sticking with the program they've advised and not giving up before you've really tried to see how it's working. It's still a developing specialty
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I was actually reading about ECT when I came across an article about TMS. It really seems like a lot of effort put on by the patient but I was ready to do it if necessary. Whatever works, right? Honestly, when I realized I was facing another episode I was ready to lick batteries if it would have an impact. Compared to ECT, TMS seems really easy. My insurance covered 80%, because I had some de
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I know exactly what you mean about having to titrate up and down. Winter has always been tough for me, too. When I noticed I was on the downward slide again, I was really stressed because looking at the list of meds online, I really didn't have any new pill options. I was considering ECT, but it's a really high commitment treatment and I was concerned about the memory loss. I already deal with an
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Thank you! It feels good to have such an awesome group of people to talk to.
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Should be titled, "proper cultivation of the next generation of victims". Toddlerhood should be a time of safe exploration of the physical environment and making good brain/body connections. They're too young for this heady stuff. Typical cult, pushing too far, too fast, too much. It just establishes the one-way resource flow.
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Ha! I'm glad. Stick it to the entitled twits who think that their hip presence is going to get them by in grownup land. Now if only there was a hashtag "GAs are gross".
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Hello all, below I not-so-briefly discuss my personal experiences with mental illness. If discussion about the potential for self-harm associated with depression and/or other mental illness is disturbing to you, please skip this post. If you need help for depression, please reach out for professional help. You matter and you deserve to feel better. TL;DR: I achieved significant relief from se
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I wonder how much of certain costs the entity doesn't have to pay due to business owners who are faithfully supporting the anointed ones. They probably get great comps. They probably expect great comps and I can imagine certain vendors of things like food, hotels, couture and accessories, cars...the really nice stuff, being "blessed" by their faithful "gifts". It puts me i
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This is SO COOL! Thank you!
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I've only run across one old crush years after, and it was weird that someone I'd thought so much of was totally not my kind of person anymore. There's a really serious ex-boyfriend I hope I never see just because it would be so cringey. The cult leeches the individuality right out of people. I also think the constant gaslighting and conformity pressure, financial burden, and forced fake relat
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I love train models, but I watched too much TV as a kid and can't look at them without thinking of the way Gomez Addams crashed his train sets.
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Oh, ok. I just assumed. I still think beauty is an innate human skill though. :-)
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Right? So much detail! And the excellent balance in proportion, color, movement and sound. Meticulous and beautiful, both interior mechanical and exterior organic, which combine to an exquisite yin-yang feel. Very harmonious, and the Koi look so healthy and content. You realize that there is something really profound about being an atheist who has taken matter of various sorts and created a d
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Wow. So this us the afterlife? It's remarkably commonplace. I'm alright with it, as long as God sticks to Huffpost and doesn't go to Goop for his wellness lifestyle advice. Waking up some morning with a quartz egg in a delicate place and having only psychic vampire repellent spray and $200 Spirit Dust smoothies to do self-care while God consciously uncouples from humanity would make being dead
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I think the founders trusted God not to interfere with the "Nouvus Ordo Seclorum" as they tended to openly demonstrate their leanings for Deistic interpretations of "God". I trust God to continue not existing outside the human psyche, or at least playing such a passive and invisible role in the lives of human beings as to make the distinction between existing and not existi
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What kind of habitat do they need? Do yours use natural waterways on your property, or are we talking artificial pond? What kind of numbers in regards to egg production? Are they consistent in size within a breed? How do the eggs bake up in comparison to chicken eggs? Any taste variation? Add more/less to recipes? What kind of inventive nonsense do they get up to? My farming friend left a
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Beth, stay warm, dry, and don't forget to aim the business end of mama duck AWAY from you before squeezing. Although I have to say I don't know if the quack end will be too easy to deal with either and you will probably know all the duck swear words pertaining to "please put me down" and "you're going to stick what into where?" before your act of compassion is complete. :-)
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I think some of the most well spent money I forked over was for DNA screening. I got both entertainment and real value out of my results. My ancestry came out British, French, Swedish, Sami Finnish, Spanish, Basque, and Armenian. Neanderthal contribution, 3.5%. That was entertaining, because my insular (cough...racist...cough) Scots-Irish grandparents insisted we were British Islanders clear
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Snuffer? This sounds like drama that I have missed. Is this an RfM thing or something belonging to the wider net that I can Google? Edit: Omg never mind. Google hath rendered revelation. Wow. Ignorance was bliss.
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I totally did not know any of that, LW, so thanks for the explanation of the background debate. I've just noticed, at least on the internet, that out of all the factors that combine to form the culture around human evolutionary theory, the actual data seems to come in second to special interest in the academic community. My relative who teaches college physics says it's the same feisty politi
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That, too, be-ith a sin, so I'm told. Let us continue to do so. It's not like anyone's gonna turn us into a pillar of sal-- Um, not like anyone's gonna make our beasts of burden chastise-- Um, not like we're going to catch any flack on Twitter. :-) I hope Screen Name gets a chuckle. "Hospice nurse" isn't a noun that goes by my notice without my trying to give good cheer.
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Good luck with that one, The scientific community will doggedly defend their pet theories out of ego and funding patronage while the layfolk of the internet are convinced that people like me with Rh- blood type are alien hybrids. Data-schmata.
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Smuggling oxygen by hiding it in my respiratory cavity, smoking oregano, and counterfeiting bowling shoes. Oh and dang, do I love lying. Ok, truth time. Actually I'm an oxy(gen) addict and I have to smuggle just to get by. My real favorite sins are a toss up between glass looking, treasure digging, or buying up historical documents in order to hide their embarrassing contents from the general
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