@ Breeze I am so so sorry to hear this happened to you. Thank-you for being honest about your experience and responding to my post.
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I figured some would think that, but no I am definitely not on here to preach lol. I have severe OCD and the stories and testimonies of people is why I still question and I just wanted to know if others could relate. I have not been active in the church for years and I have previous posts from years ago on here. Thank-you for being brave and sharing your story. I am very very sorry to hear ab
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Child abuser? Where is that document? I understand as he has always been my source of confusion. As an active teenager I did not feel comfortable sustaining him as a prophet in my interviews. I guess though as a believer of God, it is hard to use that logic when Moses was a murderer and God used him to raise up his peculiar people. God does a lot of things I do not understand.
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I appreciate your response and understand why you my question belief. However, the church taught me all of the Christian principles and I felt God's love and changing power in my life even as a Mormon, because God judged my heart and knew that my faith in him was the best I had with what I had been given. Remember, that to all those Mormons on here questioning, they were taught the Bible is m
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I have been on here for a few years now and the journey has not gotten easier for me... actually it has gotten harder. So hard, that I honestly am exhausted and am afraid to die. I wish I could say I have left and have never been happier, or I know it isn't true, but that is not the case. I still believe. I know it all too; The polyandry, the history, the book of Abraham... and still part of me
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First off, thank-you very much to all those who responded to my last post. I was at an all time low and I had so many kind, thoughtful, and compassionate responses. You have no idea how much I appreciated it. I am writing because I am curious about other's experiences. I hope I am not the only one. I have severe OCD and scrupulosity (religious OCD). This is diagnosed and is not just a once a
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Hi, This is gonna seem depressing, so if you are not the type to show compassion, heads up. Also, I still believe in God. I am open to athiest responses, I just want people to know that when reading my post. I came here because this last week I have felt so low. I am in so much emotional pain. I feel weak for holding onto a church I don't even know if I believe in anymore, but I feel so
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I have been inactive for a few years now, but still struggle. I believe a lot of good things in the church but do not actively go or plan to attend the temple anytime soon. I still have the fantasy of it all though. I am 26 and feel alone. I do not want to go to the branch as I feel isolated.I had a counselor ask me if I could believe in the good and still be inactive and in her terms be in the m
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This might seem odd, but as a former very active member this is real to me. I use to think that my role as a young woman was to be worthy and ready to go to the temple. I have recently left the church due to my questions regarding Joseph Smith as a prophet. It has been really hard. I have a man in my life that I have always really liked and when I was active wanted to date. He is still active. We
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I have not been on the site or posted in a few months. I notice after a year of not going to church that it is easier to just avoid it. I still have a mormon family and friends but they know I do not attend. I don't have more peace in my life, I just couldn't live up to all the expectations. I just need to vent something...so forgive me.... When I was 18 I went to BYUI. I was such a devoted mo
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wth did I just read.....I thought, there is no way he said that.....this is on the church website. I am actually shocked at that talk.
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How many times growing up did my Sunday school teachers, family and mormon friends tell me that people leave the church not because they dont think its true, but because of hypocrites or being offended or anger. Well, I am angry. I am furious. so what? I am angry at the church for making me feel worthless, not good enough, and weak. I always felt unlovable. Is it wrong that I am so angry at a man
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Well, I am an inactive mormon trying to figure out how to think for myself. I am open and receptive to the mormonism as I was taught growing up (families, love , forgiveness, Christ) but am learning all the extra stuff, hence my inactivity. It has been interesting to think about things while still having deep psychological indoctrination. I have been praying to God to help me find truth, whether
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I am disgusted by this. I was asked if I "touched myself" when I was 8 years old for my baptismal interview. Yes, this is true.
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Thanks everybody it really is helping me understand. I had no idea how many devout mormons have left. The church is really good at telling you only people with half truth are on these sites...I dont know that that is true now. Thanks for your patience with me, this is a tough journey, and its nice to not feel judged.
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I am sure some of you may notice a pattern in my posts, in that I still believe and cannot make up my mind. Silly right? Mormons say to avoid these sites because its satan taking truths and slightly twisting them, and yet, I found the church is doing the same thing with Joseph Smith and his upbringing and history. Just when I think I am understanding the lies, I remember something that was a &quo
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I have been reading and rereading all of your responses and looking at the links, and its helping me understand more about my own questions, so thank-you. I am definitely that mormon that no one thought would ever leave, and even I am shocked that I am questioning because I never doubted. I still believe, and I guess I still dont know why I am questioning except that I do not have peace, never di
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I am amazed at the outpouring of understanding I am getting, and I am so grateful. I mentioned in a previous post that I m living in fear. To elaborate, I have to be on my tippy toes around my family, who know I am not fully active, but do not know how much information I have read and pondered on. I read the book of mormon faithfully when I was 20 years old after going through one of the hardest
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Thank-you, I am recovered which is actually a reason why I searched for the truth, because I realized the more I got in the legalistic rules of the church the more I engaged in my disorder. No matter what I did in the church I never felt like god loved me. But I still have not been able to believe the Christian way of being saved through the grace of Christ because I still have that mormon God in
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I just want to say thank-you. I posted for the first time, and so many people said such nice things and it was so heart-warming. My father was just released as bishop and my mother was a seminary teacher.I asked my mom about Joseph smith lying about his wives to the saints and her response is we will never know all things, but the church is true. I think I am worried because the Mormons say I am
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I have just started searching, I guess I am in shock. But I just need to know if anyone has had the experiences I have. I really did "feel the spirit" growing up and had prayers answered and I dont know if I can explain it away. I read all this stuff about joseph that I clearly was never taught and I just keep thinking about those times I thought I felt truth.I am just scared I will be
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