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I can work on a limited basis. I was working for one employer, and when I left, my mom came to pick me up, and all I did was cry when we left. I was trapped in a way. I got through the training. No serious problems. Then there were the phones on the floor. We had no prior experience or anything. I could not handle it, so I left with the phone still connected to the customer. I actually
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Since I left the religious spectrum, I have realized that November and December is nothing but commercialization. What happened? I mean it's all talk of cars, trucks, groceries, etc etc. I hate commercials that feature couples buying trucks, and the male side, hugs the truck. Oh well It'll get worse over time.
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I've been listening to this song nonstop. It's a mixture of techno, and dance music. Check it out! https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&opi=89978449&url=https://www.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3DzK1mLIeXwsQ&ved=2ahUKEwiavt6i_rWRAxUmJjQIHfTIBAIQ9KsOegQIGBAC&usg=AOvVaw2ifib3dQq9FG_pphGf6y0K Sorry for changing the topic for 1 itty bitty second.
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I applied for benefits the wrong way, which ended up in 2 denials. I didn't get them for almost 4 years. When I did, I actually cried when leaving the court. My lawyer was awesome, and he is still awesome. Their office still sends me Christmas cards. It's hard for everyone in the situation, because the family does not know what to do. My brother thinks I am lying, my mom has seen 2 level
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Our planet might actually be better. Should make religion illegal. Just sayin'
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I'd laugh at Eyring just because he can 't seem to stop crying.
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I have minor control of all the hallucinations. But my internal self, fights everyday along with my mind, since I have a lot of things going on. I wish I had more strength to fight to such an extent that they disappear, but I know they or visionary friends, will always be there. It's a battle. Sometimes there is horrible manipulation from my voices. Reminds me of some people in my life. T
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I mean, there are people that want to harm us, and the issues about making the first move. I agree, there shouldn't be pressure on us to do what we don't want to do. If a person is told that first move bullshit, I can understand, but that leads to pressure. I wish people would not have issues such as this one, because the other person should respect them, and not present a 'do or else' scena
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I have felt that I need to put my musings somewhere. That's why I created the blog in the first place. I don't want to upset people, because my past is, for lack of a better word: barbaric, and another word - violent (to the extreme nitty gritty). I agree about the anonymity of the board, and the same rules would apply. I will not compromise people, just for the sake of doing it. I deserve
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I understand my mom's fear about people coming to kill me, over my story. I don't understand her necessary commenting, wailing about me dying. If something happens, more power to those involved. I finally feel the strength to write it. All of it. It would be an interesting introspection. I would have to start when I was 12, in the 5th grade. That's where/when it started. Referring to
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But they had maps, references to other references. All underlined and ready for further study.. Maps and everything. It was amazing how much they put into an edition. We are talking hundreds of pages for reference and planning to help the clergy, but most of all, the pastor. It was quite well arranged. I got some use out of it. That was after I left the Mormons, and then Christianity. I
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That person has stopped their meds, but who knows. But, listening to them, will be detrimental to recovery. My team knows how I act. If I have not been taking the meds involved, my team and I will get meds and they will help, by getting the meds I need right now and there. That's how important they are, Between the days off meds, I become someone else. I am very dark. I feel like I have no
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I admit that it's sad to think that way. But it's true. I've been very honest with myself, and to you all.. Meds don't always work, and it took 21 years to find a combo that worked. 21 years. Thank goodness my docs did not give up. And it shows the level of schizophrenia I do have. Sometimes, I cannot think straight. One day, and I start yelling, Two, I think I am a false reality of God
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It takes a good professional person. Psychiatrist, Therapist, and other people. Most don't reciprocate, but to others, it means the world to them. Both patient and provider. I sometimes wonder where I would be. Worst case scenario: At the State Hospital. People die there, and my psychiatrist said, it's a very sad place, because of it.' If I ever go there, I have no idea what would hap
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