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nephirocks
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Date: October 15, 2013 11:03PM
I never had any visions or even anything I could call a spiritual experience while in the Mormon church. Not even close. I felt "the spirit" sometimes, and when I didn't feel it, I thought I was doing something wrong or that I was sinning so I had tons of guilt. So horrible.
When I left the church 5 years ago, I was pretty much an atheist, but in a way where I was just so incredibly impressed with the mystery of it all. Like, really, I just somehow came to exist, on this planet in this vast thing called the universe? I'd get drunk with friends and just look up at the stars and laugh, and try to get across to my friends just how crazy I thought it was to be something called a human being!!
Soon after this, I started experimenting with entheogens, or mind-altering plants that change states of consciousness. I had experiences that essentially stopped me being an "atheist" in a sense. I do believe that I, we, you, etc, everything, the universe, is "god".
Especially on ayahuasca, which is a very powerful medicinal tea that has been used in the amazon for thousands of years- I had major visions. It completely changed me, the experiences absolutely profound. I had visions about states of mind and consciousness and how it is possible to un-tangle yourself from your thoughts/ego/etc, and experience "enlightenment" (this launched an intense interest in meditation, before this experience I knew very very little about it). I had visions about Mormonism which literally showed a picture in my mind of how it limits people and instills fear.
I had one experience on this medicine where it was like I had literally just "woken up" from a sleep, I woke up and remembered everything, past lives, what the universe was, and why I had specifically chosen to be born into a Mormon family. It was really intense and crazy! So hard to grasp at these visions in normal reality.
These experiences also opened me up to having very acute senses in normal reality, I can feel and see energy at times on places and people.
Sounds crazy, and I wouldn't believe it if I didn't experience it myself.
It was also through these experiences that I realized the "spirit" Mormons claim to own is really just the feeling of a persons energy center in their heart beginning to open. Nothing unique. Some religions or forms of spirituality understand this and know how to open up these energy centers w/o all the bullshit by doing certain meditations/chanting/etc.
Anyway. So yeah. I do believe visions are and can be real, sometimes I'm sure they are just created (hell, could be that theyre all created! who knows?) or imagined. Alls I know is I had way more visions/spiritual experiences outside the church than in it!!
In regards to healing and blessings, I like the book "the power of your subconscious mind". Healing is not unique or special, it can happen to anyone who believes in it. It's all in the mind ;)