Posted by:
forestpal
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Date: November 08, 2013 06:37AM
You might have PTSD, if you were terrified and abused by your uncle. My older brother tortured and beat me my whole life, until I left home.
You said, "The church took "me" away from myself. Who I should have been." That's just like PTSD. who would you have been if you hadn't been abused in a satanic cult? That is the person you must find again. I had the help of a good non-Mormon psychiatrist, but it was hard work.
You feel like this will never go away, but you can slowly chip away at it. Begin by throwing into the garbage your garments, you scriptures, little statues and pictures of Joseph Smith, and all the other Mormon icons you can see. If they belong to someone else, put them away out of sight, and replace them with photographs or calendars, etc. Read science, fiction, history books--anything but church books. Stop eating Mormon food. Quit the diet Pepsi habit. Eat health foods, and very little meat. Change the way you dress. I wore nothing but black, dark brown, and navy blue, from head to toe, and long skirts, when I was a Mormon. Bring color into your life! Learn to play real music, write crazy poetry, go to R-rated movies and concerts. Do things you did not do as a Mormon. Most important, donate yourself directly, face-to-face with people in real need. If you can, donate money and things anonymously. Ski and hike on Sundays. Try coffee, and see if you like it. Seek out non-Mormon friends.
In short, change the little details of your life, and soon you will find yourself living a different life. Get some freedom and peace. Go out in nature. Get a pet. Spend time with your valuable children, and show them what love really is!
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 11/08/2013 06:38AM by forestpal.