Posted by:
emily
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Date: December 16, 2013 06:35PM
How in the world do you begin to separate horrible intense feelings of disgust for the church from feelings towards individual members?
It just feels awful because I find myself being so judgemental of people that I'm either meeting for the first time or aren't even meeting but are just hearing about them, and those negative feelings are all based on the fact that they are Mormon. When those negative, hateful feelings well up, I have to remind myself that it's not fair to be so quick to judge a person and that I certainly wouldn't want anyone judging me so quickly just because I'm atheist. I try to replace those angry feelings with pity because honestly, I do pity those people that are still trapped in the church.
Does this anger and hate go away with time? I've only been out for a little over a year. Or does it just come and go?
(edit: I guess hate is the wrong word. I don't instantly hate people when I find out they're mormon. But angry, anxious feelings bubble up when I find out they're mormon and I don't want those feelings being forever linked to these individuals I do meet)
Dealing with these feelings is just another red flag in my mind of how damaging TSCC is.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 12/16/2013 07:41PM by emily.