Date: December 25, 2013 02:15PM
Many people want to commit suicide, and many do.
Some humans are amazing--popular, good looking, smart, quick, rich, famous, able to attract others, etc., etc. Other humans are dense, handicapped, poor, unappealing, avoided by others, etc., etc. Most people fall in between the extremes. If you feel you have something worthwhile to live for, you want to live. Most people magnify their strong points, so most people have a desire to live.
What brought about your current situation? Blind chance. Unless, of course, reincarnation is true (or religion, for that matter). So you may have not had any say in your genetic makeup.