Posted by:
lucyk
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Date: January 22, 2014 08:12AM
I've been having difficulty reconciling with my nearly all Mormon family. Part of it is that they were, and are, abusive, and I have PTSD from that, but a big part of it is they are all still TBMs.
This is a problem for me because I see Mormonism, especially Utah Mormonism, as pretty dangerous. My gay cousin Utah Mormon killed himself. I, as a bi-transwoman, have attempted suicide on multiple occasions, my first attempt being at 14 because I thought god hated me.
To me, I feel this need to "save the children!" so we don't end up with another one of us dead. But I've found I'm helpless to change the TBM's minds on the subject.
My therapist yesterday, suggested I stop talking to them because it's just going to hurt me right now and not accomplish anything. She thinks feeling helpless again is bad for me, because I feel this profound desperation to keep any other children from being brainwashed like I was.
I feel like a terrible person for even considering giving up, but everyone in my life seems to think it's what's best. I walk away from every conversation feeling hurt.
I guess my question for everyone else would be, have you had to make decisions about staying close to/cutting loose Mormon family members? How do you go about deciding?