After about four months of near panic attacks and extreme stress over leaving the Morg, the liberation set in today. It's fantastic. I thought I was going to have to wait so much longer. Too bad what pushed me into the liberation was lots of unrelated personal tragedy. I am totally happy about worshipping at my new church, the church of NPR and lattes.

How long had it been between when you stopped believing and you left the church. For me I officially left the church about a year and a half after I stopped believing so when I left I felt nothing but liberation. I got the feelings you describe before I left the church.

Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh . . .

Now doesn't that feel better?

;o)

I had my "Oh Shit" moment about two years before I left, but it took me a long time to make the final leap. I had a lot of stuff to sort out after years of digging to figure out any myriad of things. Plus, there was a pretty major element of anger about all the lies I was told mixed with panic of dealing with my remaining TBM family members and friends around the country. It was pretty big paradigm shift.