Posted by:
notnewatthisanymore
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Date: April 07, 2014 08:43AM
I just graduated from BYU last year and moved out of state, bummer that we didn't get the chance to meet while I was still in town. That said, play it safe. If you don't do anything obvious, you can lie your way out of almost anything at BYU. Just don't leave a trail, attend your meetings, and make sure your bishop likes you.
I deconverted for my last year at BYU, and I started disregarding the rules rather wantonly towards the end. Drinking in my apartment, overnights with my girlfriend, etc. I got away with it by never leaving a trail, and being 10x more careful about what would be seen or asked than I thought I needed to be. The problem is that they will put an "honor code violation" hold on your account if you get expelled, and to other schools this says "they cheated". You don't want that to follow you.
Learn the key phrases used at conference for apostates, it sucks, but if you can't fake it 100%, just act lazy, like you have testimony "struggles" and want to repent, etc. Leave hope that you are trying to work it out, and that you want to believe.
It really isn't hard to do, but there is a high cost of failure. It shouldn't be an issue for you, but just be extra careful.
All the best, and good luck. If you want somebody to talk to off-board, feel free to email me, I am always willing to chat (and as a BYU alum, aren't I supposed to support current students ;). I would recommend setting up a separate email (as Susan I/S said) with a fake name and all for when you are doing anything that could out you.
My email is:
Nottrueblueanymore@gmail.com
Also, what helped me best was finding all of the doubters, apostates, and new order Mormons amongst my friends, family, and room mates. It is tricky to do while staying safe, but as long as you don't self incriminate, you'll be fine. And that in person support helps a lot in fighting the likely depression.