Posted by:
Recovered Molly Mo
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Date: May 16, 2014 01:27PM
Further thoughts after reading responses.
On regarding if couples should declare openly "I am happy?".
No, I do not expect a spouse to make a declaration, but I find it really disturbing that a TBM spouse will fixate on their partners good looks, spirituality, homemaking, breadwinning, etc, But little to nothing else about their FEELINGS.
It strikes me odd that that same spouse in engagement days will go on and on about how they had a FEELING about the spirit leading them so this person, they had a FEELING about how they were meant to be their forever spouse, but they never publically declare any FEELINGS for their SPOUSE. It is all about the church first!
On regarding marriage is hard. Yep, not for wussies and totally agree there that whether or not a couple is in CHURCHINC. That there are many couples that marry for the wrong reasons and fail because there is no genuine compatibility.
I totally agree that marriage is NOT for everyone and some people should remain permanently single. I also feel some people are NOT meant to be parents.
I do not think that public verbal affirmation or PDA is a key indicator of marriage happiness, but I DO believe that totally affectionless couple is NOT healthy. My BF is not a gun-ho PDA person either, but he does hold my hand, give me public pecks, and his body language always says "I adore my woman" even if he does not SAY it or have his hands on me.
I just think way too many Mormons stay together for the sake of the church and put on a good show. As someone mentioned earlier, many LDS believe they have the Market corner on "Happy" and that somehow Temple marriages are just bound to be happier than Non Temple or Non LDS marriages.
I had this same attitude for years! I was so manipulated to feel that anything OTHER than a Temple Marriage would be miserable. The happiest marriage I ever saw was between a lesbian couple I befriended. I was jealous over their bond. They were not publically affectionate, they did not verbalize "Gee I really love you, you make me happy, or I am so lucky to have you."
They had a deep level of protection and respect for each other than their life together.
When I reflect on my past LDS marriage, I realize there was NOTHING I could do to make it better/happy if I were NOT Mormon. Mormonism was the dealbreaker for my ex. I felt that I did a "bait and switch" on him 12 years into the marriage.
My faith had nothing to do with HIM. It was a personal choice before my marriage and I naively thought my ex loved me for ME.
Nope, I had a church stamp of approval, and I was just the young virginal bride on the shelf he purchased for his eternal life. Once I was no longer church approved, I was no longer a wife in his eyes. (How many times did I hear "You are not worthy of ME anymore" or "You are not worth my kindness now that you have fallen"??)
I went into my marriage with little relationship experience and thought I really was doing the right thing for the right reasons. I was focused on what was right for us and had NO clue how deeply ChurchInc. played a role in our lives at that time.
Now that I am in a new serious relationship, I reflect and hesitate a lot..yes, my Bf tells me I overthink everything, but he understands why. He knows what I went through. He just holds me and says "These are new times, ok?"
I made peace with my Mormon past, but not entirely with my LDS marriage. When I touch base with the LDS friend from my past, I realize how incredibly arrogant he has become. He is still by far one of the nicest LDS men around (and the women in his life fawn over him for such!) but I just feel sad to see him NOT HAPPY!
My bf and I talked about what it means to be Happy in a relationship. For him it is a state of mind; a choice. It is a state above his circumstances.
For me, it is peace and appreciation for "US".
Every couple has to work out what works for them, but in nutshell I have seen way too many LDS couples act like they have bondage chains instead of joy!
RMM