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Date: May 18, 2014 01:29AM
Thanks everyone, seriously. I would have never thought that I would get such great advice!!
Yes, I did call on Thursday, per their rules. Yes, you have to wait the 30 days.
This is the one thing that I have to have my own doctor for.
I have been to pain management clinics. They put me on suboxone, which then was just a pill, a very expensive and addictive pill.
I actually took myself off that because we could not afford the co-pay, spur-of-the moment drug tests (they are quite expensive) and the monthly doc visit to a special doc.
Thing is the Lortab doesn't do much. It keeps me from feeling like crap. It does help the pain somewhat, but not near enough.
Even the pain I feel is enough to make me suicidal, because it's chronic. I am going to have to do something about this, I hate this so much.
I have osteoarthritis of several joints', and my legs cause the most distress. It's like a distant storm with the low rumble of thunder that never quite gets past your house, that storm is always there.. Just enough to make you crazy and tired.
I also have a muscle disease. I shoulld be on a different drug. But it has just been the easiest to stick with this doc. I do have to go to another doc, more specialized.
degenerative disc disease, sciatica, etc. Pretty much from my waist down I have been in pain for 20 years.
Anyway, I just got up from a 5 hour nap. I took half a pill and now I will go take some additional tylenol. It seems to help me sleep. i just have to be careful to not overdue that or I could be in real trouble.
It sucks I can't take rx strength or any nsaids. They cause great stomach pain. Back when they came out they were the wonder drug, and thought to be perfectly safe. I had life defying cramps as a teen and through my hysterectomy, and so I took 4 at a time to not beg to be punched in the head. I had endometriosis very severe.
I would say more but that wouldn't keep me anon. My doc is pretty cool, I have been extemely honest with him about what and how much I take, I have tried to have a stock of two to three days just for this reason, but this last couple months I have lost track of time and called after the 30 days.. I will have to try hard to get that. I always worry about if there is some emergency and how I hsould have 3 days worth of it.
Thanks again for the support. I feel like a cliche. But chronic pain is life-threatening. It does make you feel really bad about yourself, because you feel so bad. I know I feel pretty worthless at times when I just can't get anything done.
I'm not the mother I want to be, or the friend, and I don't work because of it. I would take one kidney stone a year instead anyday.
I used to sing to myself, especially with cramps, pain pain go away, don't come again another day.
Then of course when they were really bad it was a lot of drugs, pillow on my lap and rocking back and forth singing every damn primary song I knew. I even got the book out sometimes.
eventually I would fall asleep and wake up hours later. There , it isn't o/t anymore!!
la la, families can be together forever, thru heavenly fathers plan, I always want to be with my own family.....and the lord has showm me how I can....
sick sick song. they CAN be together, only through HIS plan. Only if you stick with it can you be with yours.
Very sad.