Posted by:
forestpal
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Date: June 10, 2011 08:12PM
You might not like what I have to say.
First of all, I do sympathize. I think every wife and mother feels like you do, from time to time. I also think it is very hard--if not impossible--to change a spouse.
The bottom line is that it is easier to change your own behavior and your attitude.
I love Anagrammy's story about the coffee tray! Often, we lump all our minor irritations into one huge problem. Yes, I'm being mean, and trivializing your situation. I used to be beaten by my TBM husband. I have a painful, incurable disease to cope with. All this helped me realize what is important. Separate out each problem individually, and decide what you can do to solve it.
If you can't solve a problem, ask yourself if it is worth risking your marriage or the happy tone of your home or your children's self esteem. Pick your battles. I think you're a good mother to put your children high up on your list.
If you can't change what happens, change yourself, instead!
My husband left his wet towel on the bathroom floor every day of our marriage. I asked him politely, I reminded him, I made jokes, I got angry, I installed more towel racks, I bought new towels. I tried leaving it wet on the floor for next time, but he would just use my towel. Nothing worked. Then, I deliberately changed my attitude. It took me 2 seconds to pick up that towel. My husband was showering and getting dressed in a suit to go to work every day, and he was good at his job, and he helped give us a good life. The towel meant he was in a hurry, and distracted with the pressure of his career.
Your story reminds me of many doctor's wives I know. They all agree that the sweet "bedside manner" is used only with their patients. These men are very caring and polite at work, but when they get home, they release their stress onto their poor wife and kids. Doctors have a high divorce rate.
My family has never forgotten my birthday, because I have always reminded them, several times, in advance. Why set yourself up?
Never test people, because they will fail. Don't wait and see if your husband remembers your anniversary--make fun plans with him, instead. All this is common sense. If he forgets special occasions, that means he's distracted. It does not mean he doesn't care about you
When my kids were little, I always baked my own birthday cake. I could have any kind of cake I wanted, and we had fun decorating it together. I appreciated any little hand-made thing they gave me. I have always expected them to celebrate with me. I also expect them to be loving, kind, and decent human beings.
If you just hang in there, your children will become adults, and what everyone says is TRUE: "They will appreciate you when they grow up, especially when they become parents themselves."
Some posters have given you good advice about the holidays. It gets more complicated when your kids get married, and they have to accommodate the in-laws. I have had Thanksgiving dinner either early or late, or even the night before, have given up Christmas Eve in order to have Christmas day with my kids, etc. Keep your eye on the goal, which is for everyone, including you, to have as peaceful and happy holiday as possible. Your goal is not to butt heads or get into a power struggle.
I've had some sad times--all alone in my house on Christmas Eve, too late to go anywhere, because my kids' flight was delayed. Home sick in bed, while my kids went out and had fun. My youngest daughter and I ate Christmas Eve dinner alone, one year, because the others all had dates and parties to go to. (We made the best of it, and that is one of my fondest memories with her!)
You can have your own family Christmas celebration a few days before Christmas. We have our own little "Night Before Christmas Eve" celebration, because we spend Christmas with both extended families. I know that to some, this might seem like being a doormat, but it involves a huge attitude change!
Being cooperative, flexible, and easy-going, has paid off, in the long run. I'm not a b**ch, and I'm not chopped liver with my children, either.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 06/10/2011 08:13PM by forestpal.