Posted by:
foggy
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Date: July 26, 2012 10:41AM
Something hit me this morning while I was getting ready for work.
I had taken a benedryl to combat whatever fun new thing is in the air and was deciding what kind of coffee I was going to toss in the keurig when I went downstairs.
Somehow that got me thinking about Starbucks, and about the story I read here about the lady whose husband forbid her to have anything from there, even hot chocolate. (Luckily my mom was never hung up on that, and we would frequently stop for a caramel apple hot cider. Yum)
When nevermo DH and I were first dating, he would always ask me why I was so worried about what people thought of me. I never could figure out why I would care so much, because most of the time I would be telling him not to say or do something in public, around a bunch of people we'd probably never see again, and probably weren't even paying any attention.
I'm sure most of you have this already figured out, but it just hit me in my drowsy, sniffly brain that I had been raised to always act perfect around other people so as not to reflect badly on TSCC or my family.
So obviously everyone around me was always watching me and judging everything I did against everything I was supposed to do and be. They weren't just there to see a movie and couldn't care less about what others were doing.
Now as I'm writing this, I'm realizing that it is kind of a self-fulfilling prophecy for them. Because we all know they are supposed to always be the perfect example, exmos do tend to catch onto examples of mormons behaving badly to show that they don't practice what they preach.
Well now I've just thought myself into a big spiral. I'm getting more coffee...