Posted by:
Cinnamint
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Date: August 20, 2014 05:10AM
I am so glad I get to define my relationships without the morg. All I wanted as a young, idealist TBM "daughter of god" was marriage and family. It never happened for me in my eleven years of singles wards.
I was a child of divorce. I cried when my parents announced it- with relief. Absolute relief. A resolute TBM, I went to church alone after my mother fell away. I was hoping sky daddy would notice how much I wanted to be worthy and follow his plan, and be on his side. After I moved to Kansas City, the most remarkable man came into my life. He had class and dignity, intellect and humor. I became his life companion until hep is sudden death in January.
Sorry to get off track. My point is that marriage was my dream, but at some point, all the brainwashing and promises that I'd meet "the one god intended" couldn't override what I OBSERVED about Mormon marriage; that for a great many, it was a mire of abuse, emotional manipulation, standards to high to meet, humor squashed, two people relegated to their roll instead being a person. I'm glad EVERY DAY that I stayed out of it. I go to bed alone, but I go to bed happy. I work and am putting myself through school. I love the woman I have become.