Posted by:
Jesux of Nazdaq
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Date: September 04, 2013 01:38PM
As a young TBM, I used to think to myself about what things I would need to repent from to get to the CK. How I had certain personal weaknesses and failures. I made a plan to overcome them so that by the end of my life I could be good enough to get into the CK. In my mind, the three-in-three-level heaven was like the ABCDF grading system on a bell curve. The number of students getting an A+ (as opposed to A, A-, B+,...) was a very small minority. Therefore, I had to be that much better than the average person. I counted my sins like I did my homework and test scores, wondering if I was doing enough to make the grade.
I realized just recently, that although it took a few years, I no longer worry about being perfect at all. I make mistakes and actually think some of them are pretty damned cool. They are great stories, they make me unique and I'm proud of them in a way. They define me to some degree.