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clark
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Date: October 03, 2014 11:59PM
Hey everybody. So this is my first time ever using a forum thingamajig, so bear with me.
Here's what's going on. I'm about to leave on a mission for the LDS church. I actually leave in 5 days. State side. And I know for a fact that the Mormon church is not the one and only true church of God here on this earth. In fact, I now know that there isn't a single church that is 'true'. But I do believe in the Bible, and I most certainly know that there is a God, and Jesus is my salvation.
See, I'm 19, and I grew up in the church. And I always thought that what I was being told was true. So lo and behold, I'm absolutely floored when I go through the temple to receive my endowment. That is not of God. So for the next 2 weeks, I get pretty deep into researching the Mormon church. I wasn't going to take it on 'faith', aka that warm fuzzy feeling in my chest. (I figure I thought the church was true, because it had to do with Christ. I didn't question it past that. Oops.)
Well, to my surprise, I dug up a lot of dirt on the church. A whooooole lot. And what I found wasn't just "Anti-Mormon" material. They were cold hard facts, and many came straight from the church's historical records. No wonder we're told not to look at "Anti-Mormon" materials. They prove the church is false!
I mean, we've got Mark Hofmann, the Mountain Meadows Massacre, the death oaths in the pre-1990 endowment ceremony, the Nauvoo Expositor, a complete lack of archaeological evidence to support the Book of Mormon, the inherent racism prevalent throughout, View of the Hebrews, the Kinderhook Plates, etc. The list goes on and on and on! It's disgusting. I've been lied to for 19 years. It was hard enough for me to forgive my mom for leaving me as a kid. How the heck can I ever forgive the church??
And what makes me the most upset is that the teachings of the church contradict what is taught in the Bible. Even as pertaining to our very salvation!! Mormons do so many works, and then believe that after all that we've done, we're saved. No!!!
Christ is our salvation, period! We're saved by faith in Christ. Our works are simply proof of our faith. The sinner on the cross beside Jesus did nothing save it be believe in Christ, even at the last hour, and he was saved. How could the Mormon church so openly mock the sacrifice that Jesus made for us? It makes me sick to my stomach.
So I'm sort of stuck in a moral dilemma. A big one.
Should I go on my mission, to make my family proud?
Or should I call everything off, last minute, and ruin every family tie/friendly relationship I've ever made? (I live in Major Mormonville.)
Personally, I'm leaning towards the mission option. But not for the reasons everyone else goes. I think I really can make a difference in peoples' lives! I can preach and teach about Christ, and the Bible. I won't say anything I don't believe. And maybe I can even get some of my companions to see the truth! Plus, I get the opportunity to leave the house for 2 years and learn how to live as a responsible member of a community. I also get the chance to learn a foreign language. But like I said, the most important opportunity I have here is preaching the true gospel of Christ, as found in the Bible, to people who need to hear it! And yes, I'm sure somewhere along the way my mission president will find out that I just don't believe in what the church says. But I'm hoping that that man has love in his heart, and can understand what I'm doing. Yeah, I may not be spreading his cult's message and baptizing members into the 'covenant' or whatever. But I am sharing the single most important message that ever existed, and that people need to hear! So maybe he'll understand, and let me carry out my work. Because it's not really my work - It's the work of God. Any decent man should understand that.
So on the other option, I could bail. If I do this, though, my life will forever be changed. My family will cut me off, my friends and neighbors will shun me, and the girl that I love more than anything except Jesus and God themselves will think I've lost my mind, and want nothing to do with me. If you think I'm being overly dramatic, I'm not. I've seen this same thing happen with 2 of my high school buddies. They must have been in the same spot I am, except they didn't have their calls. They just called it quits with the church, and they were left destitute on the side of the street. One moved to California to get away from it all, and the other is in his parent's basement, alone and forgotten.
What do I do??
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 10/04/2014 05:24PM by Susan I/S.