Posted by:
theredthirst
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Date: December 01, 2014 08:41PM
Hello all, I've been lurking exmos for almost 9 months now and this will be my first post.
So I though why not introduce myself to all you awesome people. Im 26 years old from Melbourne, Australia. BIC with heavily indoctrinated (simple minded) family. Inactive since I was 18 which funnily enough was a result of my own guilt towards not feeling worthy to receive the Milk-his-dick priesthood.
These feelings of guilt stemmed from the obvious young man issues of jacking off and girls. One day in my 'unworthyness' I recalled my dad telling me once that in the temple when you take out your endowments you received a new name, so I though "hell wont hurt to see what kind of names people got" and id some research...
As most of you can understand I was confronted with a huge wave of anger and hatred at what I had learned, not only did people not receive 'adamic' sacred heavenly names (seriously Fred & Ethel??) but I was completely shocked to find out that people used to practice blood atonement, semi-naked body cleansing and were forced to agree to things and make convenants before they knew what exactly they were agreeing too, oh and Pay Ley Ale -_-
This completely destroyed my entire view of the church and made me concerned that people like my parents who swallowed this crap hook line and sinker. Milk before meat indeed, I never knew anything about JS polygamy and nothing about half of them being under the age of 18 including a 14 year old, I never knew about the kinderhook plates, the mountain meadows massacre, JS ordering the destruction of the printing press for publishing the truth about him, never knew both JS and BY made prophecies about the moon and its inhabitants or even the fact that JS was a known crook and con-man before he invented the church...
Too late now, Ive gone too far down the rabbit hole, its not all bad though, I have a beautiful never-mo wife and a 2 year old daughter. My biggest concern, and ive felt this way since I learned the truth, is the well being of the rest of my family, so lost in ignorance... I find it so difficult not to grab each of them by the ears and scream 'WAKE UP, YOUR BEING LIED TO'.
So a question, how have you fellow exmos dealt with this issue??